Divine Mother Healing - Rose Garden - One Year Later

8/13/25

It's been one year since I had this Divine Visitation experience in this meditation. This experience, as well as, many others this past year really helped to deepen my relationship with myself, my ancestors, and God. Unfortunately, my own mother is still not a part of that deep connection. One year later and it seems she has grown more empowered in her maliciousness. I've tried to re-visit this meditaion and others to connect with my mother with hopes that maybe if I can connect with her spirit she would feel that love in the natural, but she's never there. This makes me wonder if she even has a spirit, and if so, of what spirit it is.

Even though the connection with my birth mother hasn't gotten any better, even though I live with her, the connection with my soul and spirit has increased exponentially! I have finally started stepping up and creating again. I have been healing and growing, and even though it still hurts to have a mother who can not love, I no longer allow that to affect how I show up in the world. I no longer self-sabotage, I no longer speak down to myself. I have now fully embraced myself and I am wrapped in the Love of the Divine!

The lesson for me this past year is that even in the face of abuse by the one person who is supposed to love you unconditionally, you can still learn how to love yourself unconditionally. And through that Love, learn to Love others on a much deeper level. My struggle with narcissistic abuse is now the catalyst that is opening up the doors for me being able to hold other people's hands and bring them through their dark nights of the soul, to the other side!

-------------Original post ------------------------------- 8/13/24

WOW!!!

I can't believe the synchronicity!!! When I started the New You Challenge I had no idea that day 7 would end up being the day of my Great Grandmothers birthday (I did this 13 days ago and posted in SHIFT Academy) and the same day as the Divine Mother Healing Meditation.

During the meditation when you said to go to someplace in nature I first went to the magic forest I was just in recently in New Jersey.... but then you said a place where you are comfortable and I wasn't that comfortable at that place, so I went to my family's weeping willow tree on my great grandparents farm.

I first connected with my great-grandpa (I was very close to him, his first great-grandchild)... We were under the tree, and then I saw holograms like phantom memories of the family playing bocce ball under the tree.. Then my great-grandma came over and we connected on a deep level.

A few years ago I found something out about her and was very angry, upset, and disappointed... however, about 5 weeks ago I had an experience in a meditation that showed me a different perspective and things were made clearer. I was given a missing piece of information. So this experience today was almost like a reconciliation. At first, I was me now (which is my future self of the past 😊) then we embraced and I became the little 3-5-year-old I was when she was alive. She held me in her arms and was kissing my cheeks and staring down into my eyes.... we had this amazing bonding session (which I believe really happened like it was a memory that I re-lived). We were in her rose garden but still under the tree (in real life they were near each other not as close as this experience.)

Then after a little bit, I saw my higher self (the one I still haven't become) and she called me over, so I went over to her. (Then in the meditation you started to mention the bed of roses and higher self, guides, etc.) I didn't wait for you to count my higher self walked me over to the bed holding my hand and I jumped into it, and as I landed on my back on the bed I was my now/future self again covered in roses! 🌹

My great-grandmother and my higher self had like a ceremony over me. Then I became one with my great-grandmother, and what seemed like generations of women that came before her...My higher self placed this sort of blanket or large robe over my shoulders (I was sitting up on the bed)... it was an interesting blanket... it was like a hologram, there were depths of things stored in this blanket (like pictures and videos, maybe memories and things of the future, and words/data/information). Then the robe became a blanket of roses and I was being bounced into the sky while sitting on it... It was fun! 😂 At one point I ascended all the way through the top of the tree and was floating in the sky. Then on the way down, I found myself on a tree swing and I was swinging! Weeeeeeeee

As I was swinging, I saw the weeping willow leaves start changing from a sparkling green to a rainbow of colors... [side note, I just went to look for a picture I have from an artist I love that reminded me of this experience. I couldn't find it, so I searched on the web and found out this artist passed away. So I chose the pictures below to give an idea] I was swinging the whole time, Victor Oddo's wife Pattie, was singing.

My higher self eventually stopped pushing the swing and then whispered in my ear. She then took my hand and we walked back over to the bed of roses and became one.

Believe it or not, I am leaving some information out as I would like to keep the messages they gave me to myself right now. Also, most of what was happening was before Aaron's prompts, so by the time he got to the part where we connect to inner child all of the above already happened.

The one thing my inner child said she wanted to do without hesitation is, DRAW. I haven't been able to draw for some reason lately.... So I am going to try and work on this more.

The second picture of the stained glass tree with girl in the middle is actually very similar to what my higher self looks like and this looks like part of this experience.

Update already! WOW! My mind just keeps on getting blown away by all these synchronicities.... On 7/11/24 I had this amazing experience that lasted for hours (I originally posted about it, but then took it down) This was the experience where I started dancing to Lana Del Rey's "Radio" and then I started packing and sifting through my stuff and I started putting all of my most precious possessions on my bed... it soon became this mosaic of my life... I then wanted to sprinkle my rose petals all over it, kind of like blessing it and sealing it... when it was time for the roses the song that came on (still playing Lana from Amazon Prime) was perfect for a rose ceremony... anyway in this real life experience my dried roses were in a very large glass ashtray that was from my Great Grandparents 50th wedding Anniversary!!! ROSE CEREMONY ON MY BED _ Roses being held by great grandparents!!!

Last picture is the ashtray with the roses 🌹

Here is the link to the Divine Mother Healing Meditation - https://www.skool.com/highvibetribe/classroom/43e5955e?md=1e203d548e2f4340baa622b051fe4e45

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