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Day 9 HW

Day 9 Insight: Rebuilding the bridge in real life

Unlike yesterday where I felt completely guarded, today’s meditation brought up a very clear, honest picture.

When we visualized the bridge with my father standing on the other side, my inner child asked him: "Why weren't you there for me when I needed you?"

His answer was simple: "I'm sorry, there was no other way".

I felt some relief during the Ho'oponopono part and accepted his apology, though it wasn't a huge cinematic breakthrough.

In my mind, the bridge was still broken in the middle and I could literally see my mother shaking it, representing how she actively drove a wedge between us for decades.

Looking back, I also realized how much my father wound fueled my people-pleasing and over-giving patterns. For years, I desperately sought his closeness like back in 2020 when I immediately offered him my own bedroom after his apartment had massive water damage, or lent him my car when his was in the shop. Meanwhile, my dad kept his distance because he falsely believed my mom and I were inseparable, never knowing how painful living with her actually was.

However, the real healing is happening right now in my present life!

Since going no-contact with my mom in June 2025, my dad and I are finally building a genuine father-daughter bond on eye level.

The biggest proof of our shift? At the end of 2024, when I needed a place to stay (leaving the situation with my narcissistic ex boyfriend), he only offered me a cluttered basement. So I stayed in Leipzig (almost 500 km from my hometown).

This upcoming Christmas, I’m staying with him for a whole week ... in his actual guest room!

For my inner child, moving from the "basement" to a real room in his house without having to over-give is massive.

The bridge isn't fully repaired yet, and that’s okay. We are building it brick by brick in reality 🙂

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Day 9 HW