Momentum Lab WINS- from quitting my "dream job" to creating a job that actually works for me
So a couple of months ago I did something really scary, I quit the job that I thought was my ideal dream job. The thing is, while parts of the job were awesome- like truly everything that would have made teenage Emily so excited and awestruck- after about a year it started to lose its magic. I kept trying to bring it back because I didn't want to admit the scary truth- this job was burning me out. So I tried making changes, talking to my boss, and I got a pay bump and leadership role as director of ketamine therapy services and yet I still came home feeling burnt out and unhappy. Then I realized it wasn't about the money (though lets be real, even as a director, the money therapists makes in a clinic setting is usually pretty low, especially for someone with a master's degree) it was about the lack of choice and freedom, it was about spending all of my time helping someone else create their vision instead of creating my own. So I quit. And it has been terrifying. As someone with ADHD having that external structure that a clinic provides was really helpful- even if it was also killing me inside. I found myself in a new scary position after putting in my resignation notice- my hours and pay have been steadily dwindling and in less than 2 months, I'll be completely out of the clinic and on my own. Meanwhile my to-do list for my private practice has been getting longer and longer, while also still having so many things to do to wrap up my clinic work and just basic life maintenance. I found myself with more free time than I've had in years yet feeling paralyzed, unable to start anything unless there was a strict deadline. That's when I realized I needed help and joined the momentum lab (the day before it started, in classic ADHD fashion). Since then, I have been checking things off of my to-do list consistently, have gotten more consistent clients in my private practice (literally two new clients today!), and am starting to feel less paralyzed and more confident.