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Bad energy

This post is NOT political, and I am NOT talking about politics, although I have to mention some events that are happening to draw out the "problem" I am experiencing. Please meet me in the heart space and do not make this political. Thank you <3

My hubby's little sister and her family live in Abu Dhabi. They are having to shelter in place because bombs are being sent their way. She said that the Iron Dome is holding up well so far, striking down many missiles in the sky, before they can hit and harm (except for the shrapnel that then falls from the sky and has hit and harmed some and killed a person).

The amount of fear, anger, disgust, and helplessness that I am experiencing is off the hook. I can recognize that it is too much, considering they are safe and I am safe and nothing is happening to any of us at this time. I feel small and powerless, and wonder how a person can make decisions that affect entire populations who have absolutely nothing to do with whatever claims are being made about the need for these actions.

In my mind are these thought cycles: Based on the real history of things we have been told versus what we later find to be the truth, I cannot even believe any of the news stories. It feels like these are climaxing events just for the pure outcome of climaxing events, to lead to other things. And when I think this thought, I get filled with rage and frustration. I wonder why people can't see it. I want them to see it so we can stop it! All of it! It feels like a rich man's game of a few key players, who always play and somehow always benefit, and the rest of the world serves as their play pieces.

And I notice that as I allow these thoughts to spin in my mind, it becomes rumination. Over and over, obsessing about what is happening there.

I want to stop this cycle. It's not doing anything beneficial for this situation, for my sister and her family, or for myself. I can do breathwork, exercise, and get some work done, but whenever I get still, I start to worry about them, and then the cycle spins.

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