Failed Thursday thru Friday... I am ready for the big long everlasting streak of a clean mentality. Honestly I feel fear thinking about laying aside my addiction. But nothing bad is going to happen from laying aside my addiction But it feels like something bad will happen. It really feels that way.

Been failing at this for 4 days. I was clean for 10 before. But I want to accept that 10 is not very many. I know I need positive and optimistic accountability. But right now I feel like a fake. I feel the very strong pull of my addiction. I want to be better. What else do you all talk about when talking about accountability?

Yesterday and today have some drifting behaviors and actions coming up. I was seeking pleasure, excitement, enjoyment where I think no one can give me. But deep down I know that that's not something it will work for my entire life. I'm now single, I wish to be able to connect deeply with someone I love and am working towards the goal (even though it's something that a bit risky and uncomfortable but I want to take the challenge) 😎

The 🎯 Accountability tab is where you show up and keep yourself accountable. If you want to check in, you can do it here, whether it was a good day or a bad one. The point is not to be perfect, it’s to stay aware and take control instead of drifting. I’ll respond to posts, and the other brothers and sisters here will too. This is a place to stay consistent and not do this alone.