Sam here (SE from the telegram group)! Happy to see you all and proud to be part of this group that is fighting the good fight.

Yo guys, hope everyone is doing great. I was enjoying my tobacco pipe and figured that I wanted to share some information about porn addiction recovery

Fabian here 👋 I’m from Chicago and I look forward to eliminating this disgusting addiction once and for all. As to what brought me here. Like most men, you discover porn typically at an early age. I discovered porn at about 12 years old. As you can imagine this can lead to psychological and negative effects over time. What may seem normal or natural at the time, it completely derails your life as you get older. I have always been a very active person (Athlete/Sports). Infact, I played baseball collegiately. So, I was a person with discipline and good character. While having an active lifestyle is good, especially because it keeps you out of trouble. However what happens when you no longer live an active lifestyle because of age and work? What happens when you get bored? What happens when you are lonely? This is when I resorted to porn to find pleasure, just like sports did for me when I was young. What I discovered as I got older was that porn was a symptom to something much more deeper. While loneliness and seeking stimuli amplified my urges to seek porn. It wasn’t the loneliness and wanting stimuli itself as to why I needed porn. But rather because it associated itself as part of my nervous system and neural pathways. In addition what I realized during the above discovery is the root cause of why my brain allowed the above is because it thinks that what I am doing is completely fine and party of biology. You brain can’t tell the difference between pixels and real sex. Infact it probably thinks you are procreating at such a high level which associates it as good. Along this path I was also able to discover something that led me to constantly relapsing. I was able to address my inner child. This is partly why I was doing what I was doing. And like most boys, they need love, comfort, and safety which I did not receive when I was a child. We also seek validation/approval from our fathers. Not only did I not receive that but I was often criticized for my every move. I genuinely started to believe that there might be something wrong with me. Which led to the loneliness and seeking stimulation > which leads to relapsing. See the link? I kept digging further however to understand even more. I realized my father was seeking the same thing as a child as well. He never addressed his childhood trauma. Whereas I did. His father(my grandpa) left him at an early age to go work so he can support my dad and his siblings. Because of this my dad was raised by just his mom. Over time this leads to a dysfunctional/dysregulated nervous system in which influenced how he (my dad) raised his children. This influenced my nervous system alongside my brother and sister. This led to to depression, anxiety, fear, limited mindset,etc. Once I was able to address the above, my journey to a porn free life has become easier. I now know that my father’s past and my upbringing don’t have to influence who I am or who I want to become.

HEY YO,GUYS Amal here,so here is how i end up finding accountabilio,i was in deep search to quit pmo from age of 15 where i fell into a depression,i knew pmo was messing me up badly from that age,before that even though i had usage of pmo only at that certain age i fell into unlimited amount of corn, i was exposed to porn at age of 9 by some bad influences i had ,yeah like every teens they showed me thinking it is fun stuff and i went crazy like finding such a curious society hidden topic at very young age,and i didnt fap at that age obviously ,but it put seeds to a disastrous teenage of pmoing,going in loop thinking its the norm until the time i was a weirdo ,socially disconnected ,depressed slowly and steadily, i was very good at studies too,but pmo doesnt mess your ability it messes up your self image,even though i am a winner i developed an image of loser who couldnt control his impulses,not to mention the anger issues growing up and doing things without any thoughts whatso ever,also my friend circles turned to full weirdos (because i was one too..) during this time... in short my life got messed up slowly and i just didnt noticed because i was on a chase for next dopamine hit. And facing this depression and socially isolated made me wanted to quit initially,up until ages of 20 i was using will power method and wasnt very successful doing it ,but i made this long streak after going and pushing through initial difficult days ,and i noticed pmo is a big weight rather than a relief,all the time i was trying to quit on the basis of feeling guilt until then and also woman attraction at that age,but after i passed those initial i felt free ,a freedom i always wanted but couldnt have. also the benefits was evident on the long streak,my life in college got better,it was full of hope of a new life,but i had the self doubt of whether i still got the thing working,i was taking advice from telegram nofap channels initially ,had so many ask me how i did such a long streak and my response would be "its easy once you pass initial days",but i again relapsed after a long streak after months ,only to understand its a loop i cant stop