I'm stuck in the middle; I need some suggestions.
It's my 11th examination, and I don't want to pursue education further, although I might have to if my parents pressure me. I've always wanted to earn money. I have dreams, and if I can earn some, I'll go to Indore for a year after completing my 12th board exams and start a new agency. However, I am really scared of cold calling. My voice doesn’t sound good, and people often have trouble understanding me, which increases my anxiety. But the money I could earn has the potential to change my future, and I could reinvest it. Sometimes, I question my decisions: "Do I even want this?" "Can I really do it?" "It’s so tough." "Would I be able to generate results?" I also consider that going through the traditional education system might be a good option. But then I remembered that I’d have to work hard there as well, and I would be scared in that situation too. Is it worth sacrificing my dreams? Then I think that maybe it's just part of the process. Perhaps God is testing me to see if I'm worthy of the reward. Maybe every successful person faces challenges, experiences pain, and transforms into a new version of themselves. Or maybe I'm just becoming weak and don't want to face the reality that someday I'll have to endure tough times. If not today, maybe in ten years, when the situation will be even worse. I have the opportunity right now. I fear cold calling, and maybe I’m just procrastinating or making excuses not to do this work. But what if I go through this process and become my dream self with high confidence? I could say to myself, "I don’t fear cold calling, and I made it." I would have a story to tell about how I overcame tough times without anyone's help. How long can I run from facing reality? Or maybe I should not pressure myself so much and just enjoy life.