5 Struggles ● My day job - I have been working in a dead end IT job for all my life, no career aspirations, no creativity at work, no promotions, I am waiting for the day I can quit my job and do something meaningful for me and my life. But I am a sole earning member of my family, my wife is a home maker and kids in college, so I am not able to quit suddenly and perform comedy full time where there is no money yet. ● Social media failure – 5 years in social media still in 100 and 1000 views jail, I have spent 15,000 $ on coaches and programs which have not helped me, I keep wondering why would anyone stop scrolling for a video by a balding, middle aged, Indian immigrant with an Indian accent, what is so sexy about me and my boring life I can talk about? ● My relationship with alcohol and binge drinking has always been a struggle in my life, many times I binge drink and would not know how I even drove back home. I have embarrassed my wife and kids in many situations because of this. ● 6 years of standup comedy and I do not have my own fan following, I have not made a comedy special and have been doing random gigs and not consistently booking and touring. While people who are far less financially situated than me have taken risks, moved to Austin or NYC to build there comedy career and are being successful, I am unable to quit my day job and pursue comedy full time as I am the sole bread winner and my comedy money is not even close enough to sustain a family of 4. ● Me and my wife have struggled with companionship and intimacy issues for years, we went to marriage counselling, we are 2 different personalities, she is a spiritual seeker and trained meditation teacher whereas I am fooling around with my comedy stuff. ----------------------------------------------------------------- 5 Contrasting Wins: ● My day job gives me financial stability to pursue my passion on nights and weekends. As a single earning member of my family it helps reduce financial stress and anxiety and helps my family lead a comfortable life. I have been working from home since covid pandemic and that has also helped me to take my job on the road and perform at comedy shows like a 2 week run in Bahamas where I do the day job from the hotel resort during the day and do comedy shows at night.