Why are you rushing everything? Why are you going so fast and expecting such fast results? Just chasing the short-term thing, short-term pleasures, short-term results. Why is that? Let me explain the reason why so many people are in a rush to get results, whether that be in business and health things of this nature. It's because of a dysregulated nervous system, a nervous system that is stuck in survival mode. That just means that their chasing instant gratification constantly as their default mode because they're in survival mode because of their dysregulated nervous system. Why is that? It's because of too many unprocessed emotions inside your body AKA trauma. The only way to fix this problem for the long term is healing your trauma. That's why it's so important that you do this at some point in your journey you dedicate at least a season to healing your trauma. And you already know that you have to bring up your unprocessed emotions, feel the unprocessed emotions then do that on repeat. Hope this helped, this is an important lesson I learned.

Why are you being so hard on yourself? The truth is you're only about one year old. So far you've just got started. Let me explain. Too many people think whenever they first start healing their trauma, for instance on the first day or two, they should be at level 1000 but it doesn't work like that. Remember the games we used to play, for instance. Think of Minecraft for example. Imagine if the first day you buy the game you're excited and you think you are at the level to enchant your diamond sword to get sharpness V or whatever. That requires you to be about level 30, doesn't it? You mat get frustrated and annoyed at that but, you need to mine more coal, you need to kill the mobs, all that. That will take you probably about a few days to a week to level up as much as you want, the thing is we all start at the bottom and have to work our ways up. It's the exact same in everything else. You start and shouldn't expect to be at such a high level and get such great results so fast. Obviously it takes a lot longer than Minecraft logic as well. Just understand that to achieve these things that you want it's going to take a lot longer, cause you probably only got into this stuff one year ago, which means you are only one year old. If you're starting out in the gym, for instance, yes it will be difficult and you might be annoyed that you can't lift this weight but everyone starts somewhere. This is what it's about: showing up, progressive overload, mindset of doing more each time you go to the gym, for instance, adding on 0.25 kg or so per week on the bench press. Bro, it's the same with trauma healing: doing a little bit more every week. Whenever you're starting its fine if you can barely even do the process for about 10 second’s. You just slowly level up and get it to a solid level like a few minutes, perfect! Thats how you process your unprocessed emotion. That's what it's all about, and an important lesson I learned.

This is how I’m feeling coping with an on again off again toxic relationship tonight. Not only do I have the emotions, but the ugly behaviors are beginning to join in and I don’t want that. I’m way better than that. Send some good vibes my way.