What sounds like a harsh and placative title is sadly true. You have only one life, you will not get a second chance! How many mistakes have you made? How many things do you wish you hadn't said or done? How many times have you looked at yourself and your actions and were unimpressed or even ashamed? Are your goals still on track? Have you achieved what you wanted? Are you completely on the wrong path and how can you make up for every stupid decision and mistake you've ever made and become the best versionof yourself? We only have one life, one single short and mostly meaningless life in the big picture that is time. Chances are that most of what we'll experience, work towards and eventually achieve will ever truly matter for the world around us. In a hundred maybe two-hundred years we will be forgotten and can count ourselves lucky if at least our ancestors remember us every blue moon. Our life that has such a huge meaning to ourselves will have absolutely no meaning to 99.9% of people on this planet. But you know what? That is the beauty of it. Our lifes are so short, so meaningless for most that we can basically fo whatever we want. If no one remembers who you were in 200 years, whats stopping you from just doing things for the sake of doing them. Dont get me wrong, I have so many goals in life and I want to achieve them all, having something to work towards is important because it can give yourself a dense of purpose in life. But despite that, we should never ever forget how short and how special life is. Try to cherish every moment as much as possible, do stuff because you wamt to and not because anyone had told you to do so. Have you had a bad day? Fuck it, move on Have you not achieved what you wanted? Sucks, take time, reflect and then move on! Noone likes you? Well that's a shame, do things on your own then, because at least you're liked by yourself. I might lack the words or the writing-skills to make this point come across the right way, but I know you guys will get what I want to say.

After a week full of learning i sat here wondering what my take away from this week was and that made me think about my learning techniques. In order for you guys to understand this take, I must go into into detail about me. I have ADHD, something I have been diagnosed with about a decade ago, and sadly it has affected my life quite negatively. Something that I have always struggled with, is learning, or more so, having the discipline and concentration needed to study hard. And i believe my ADHD has a lot to do with it. A well known problem for people like me, is that we "cannot" start learning unless we feel any kind of pressure and even if we do, we are often distracted by pretty much anything. For years I have been struggling to find a solution and only found temporary solutions. I tried music, learning groups, medicine, no medicine, learning away from home, learning with cards, only with paper and not a laptop, etc. But nothing seems to be working. Even if it works for a short amount of time, I sadly always fall back into my old patterns. Now for my newest try: In the last few weeks I tried some new things to cope with my learning problems. I tried creating a "fake" sense of pressure by giving myself deadlines. For example, "I have to have learned x amount of hours by tuesday". This helped me to force myself to learn. Of course the midterm-tests also created some pressure, so i dont know if this actually works long term. The other thing I tried out, is that I now only study at the library. This helps me to feel like I have to learn because I came all the way there. It also eliminates 95% of the distractions I would have at home and the quiet and focused environment helps me to focus. My take away from this week thus is, that sometimes you have to trick your mind into doing something it otherwise wouldn't do. I am still quite afraid that this will once again not be a long term solution, but I'm glad it at least works in the short term.

I have been feeling a little anxious the whole week. This is going to be my first post that I share with you, so the whole week I wanted it to be as incisive and meaningful as possible. However yesterday I had a devisive day, I went to lunch with a new friend from uni and some old friends I haven't caught up with for a long time and in the evening I went to the movies with my dad. At first I wasn't happy with myself, I ate fatty and unhealthy food for lunch and dinner and I came home late which meant I didnt have time to to any studying. But then I started feeling grateful and I realized something: People, for me at least, are what makes my life have meaning. I care about a lot of things and want to achieve even more, but I want and I need people around me on the way. Don't get me wrong, I love being alone from time to time, but there's nothing quite like meeting with old friends, having fun with some of your closest people or spending time with your family. Even when it can feel exhausting from time to time. The point I want to make is that even if you have your hands full and tasks are piling up, you should always make at least a little time for the people that mean something to you, not only for them but also for your own peace of mind.

I am studying at a University that is under the Top 10 Across the world. When I pass I will be able to work all kinds of jobs in the Computer Science realm. In Switzerland its easy to get high quality eduction no matter how good your grades are. There are endless possibilities to get to Uni even if had bad grades as a kid. Education availablility is a MASTERPIECE by the Swiss Government. I am extremly greatful for being a part of this education system and being able to profit from it. Studying CS is not going to be easy but I will be walking into Uni everyday with a SMILE on my face because I GET to study at ETH Zürich. I am grateful for receiving high quality education and getting challenged. Keep Grindin Grindset GREATFUL