THE STORIES WE NEVER WROTE - waiting for your presence
There have been times when I felt so exhausted I didn't have the mental strength to write a single sentence. I remember years ago, when I was running a small coffee shop in the centre of Bournemouth. On the few days off I had each month, I would sit in another coffee shop, hands pressed against my forehead, searching for concentration that wouldn't come. I would go home and it was no different there. I couldn't pull out a single decent sentence. Then I understood. I had to stop believing that every sentence needed to be perfect on the first attempt. So I simply wrote, even badly, the scenes that kept coming to me. I stopped waiting and started moving. But life has a way of finding new methods to stop you. Even now, when I write more than I ever did, I have a folder full of stories waiting for their next page. Every writer I have ever met carries at least one of these unfinished stories. Stories that arrived fully formed and were never put on paper. A character who knocked and was told to wait. An idea so personal, or so large, or so frightening, that writing it felt like something that required a different version of yourself, a braver one, a readier one, one who would arrive someday when the conditions were finally right. The conditions are never right. That is the first thing worth saying. The second thing worth saying is that these unwritten stories are not failures. They are evidence of something alive in you, a story that found the right person to carry it and has not yet found the right moment to be born. There is a difference between a story you abandoned and a story you are still becoming ready to tell. What is the story you have never written? Not the one you started and put down. The one you have never started at all, the one you think about in the car, in the shower, in the ten minutes before sleep when the mind goes somewhere quiet and private. The one that feels too close, or too complicated, or too much like the truest thing you know. You don't have to write it today. But I think you should tell us it exists.