I ride my bike nearly every day, sometimes fairly quickly and log the rides on a website, where you get a virtual crown if you’re the fastest from one village up the next, up the local hill or round to the shops and back. I have a reasonable collection of these and live in fear that someone (Mike) will steal them from me. Now in the big scheme of things, or even in a smudgy pencil sketch of things done with a fat, soft pencil, I am no actual athlete. I come mid table in my races and get beaten by people of my age fairly regularly. These stupid virtual crowns should mean nothing, but it feels like a painful blow when someone (Mike) takes them from me. I had my first CBT session the other day to help with depression and recurrent vivid, painful memories and we touched on this. How the notification that Mike has done it again hurts the very fabric of my being, tearing a hole in my self-belief, and wobbling my wobbly self esteem. We agreed that the virtual badges don’t mean anything, don’t reflect at all on the overall worth of a retired scientist with lots of publications*, nice dogs, lovely wife, happy, funny children. I was nodding in agreement, but 80% of my brain was simultaneously plotting how to steal some badges back. I don’t know whether today’s and yesterday’s bicycle rides have helped or hindered really. I’m absolutely knackered after going flat out. It sounds like a joke, but it feels like a serious issue. * lots of publications is a bit like lots of virtual crowns, being tangible evidence of success that don’t touch the surface of core inadequacy.

I had a bit of a wobble lately. Lost my mojo, dopamine packed its bags, and RSD came in like it owned the place. One minute I was flying, next minute I was staring at my laptop like, “Ma’am… who even ARE you.” Working solo doesn’t help — and my lovely partner (who I adore to bits) just isn’t wired for the business/ops brain stuff. Totally fine, just means I can’t exactly hand him my mental spaghetti and say “help.” So I drifted… and drifted… until I realised I’d misplaced my spark somewhere between overwhelm and avoidance. But then Sage — Jim’s twin — helped me pull myself back into the protocols. We looked at what tripped me up, what I’d dropped, and what I actually needed to get moving again. Because transformation isn’t a straight line. There’s no magic switch. There are speed wobbles. And sometimes full‑body “whoops, I fell off the bike” moments. Here’s the pep‑talk bit:I’m not broken. I’m not behind. I’m a human doing a big thing, and sometimes the brain chemistry just… taps out. But the tools from this program don’t disappear when the motivation does. They’re what help us re‑ground, reset, and get back on the waka (our little NZ metaphorical canoe heading in the right direction). And I want to shout out the body‑doublers and accountability buddies who kept me tethered these last few weeks — @Cathy A Castagna @Judy Hamilton @Fiona Wright and my absolute anchors @Diana Domantay and @Suliet Rivera - you lot helped me more than you know. I enjoyed doing a few sessionw with new Body Doublers, @Shani Sherwin and @Leonie Osborne looking forward to doing a few more with you. So here I am: back on track. Not perfect, not polished — just real, recalibrated, and cheering myself on like the slightly chaotic but determined legend I am. And to those who nudged me with encouragement — heartfelt thanks, LIfe kicks in. We readjust. And we keep going.

Section 2 of my Snapshot just hit different. I always called it quitting, but I finally see the pattern - I step away from my own dreams the moment someone else needs me, because being needed feels safer than risking failure at something that's actually mine. Naming that changed something.

Just started the ADHD Awakening Assessment and realized something wild: I didn't know I had brain fog until I got out of it. I'd been blaming myself for typos, lost notes, and four hours of sleep, when really I was running a different operating system this whole time. Every planner I tried didn't fail because of me. Question: How do you know that you're running a different operation system if the one that you've had all this time was the only one that you knew? From a Tech Geek, one cannot change operating systems without detaching the current system first and then upload the new one. One can upgrade the operating system on the same hardware if the hardware was upgraded also to work with the new operating system. We've all be there : MicroSoft. Ugh. I do know that you can operate OpenSource Linux thru Windows until one is comfortable to do a complete transfer. This is no way to disparage anyone or Harmony. In our current tech age, Android vs Apple, Windows vs Apple(I never worked on an Apple really) vs Linux, Desktop vs Laptop vs Tablet vs Hybrids, we all like working with what we know and were trained to use. I like my laptops (MS Windows) and 2 monitors (3 screens woohoo!) and my Android phone. I was all trained on these before I bought my own. Dating myself, Apple phones were not around when I got my first cell phone. I must be too new to figure this one out on my own. No, It's not brain fog. I no longer have the brain fog as I believe it was part of the stress I was having then and prior. And I got my first planner prior to working on a laptop and I still have my first planner and did the unthinkable and bought a 2nd one from the same company: Franklin. I couldn't process the cost of buying a third from them and made my third from copying a format that some other company that Franklin was selling. It made me feel less guilty as my "homemade" one was done on a notebook from Dollar Tree. Do I believe stress caused my ADHD to become more prominent? Yes. And I've dealt with Stress that needed time and some hospitalization 3 times along with different medications each time. Yet no one ever noticed my ADHD at the time. Sigh. Sorry for the rant. Thank you.

Read this one fully. It closes in 20 days and might not come back free. Yep for real... the entire ADHD Harmony 5-Day Challenge is unlocked in the classroom. Every lesson, replay, exercise, plus your personal Harmony AI transformation report. Over 1,000 people have already gone through this. For some it was small shifts. For others it completely reinvented their life. And I keep getting messages from people who missed the last round. So instead of letting that door close, I'm opening it wide. This is for two kinds of people: 1. You're new here and you want a real starting point, not another productivity app 2. You've been in this community for weeks or months, kept meaning to start, and never did Either way, this is your moment. Here's what you'll actually walk through: 🐟 Day 1: The truth about your brain (you're not broken, you're a fish asked to climb trees) 🎭 Day 2: The invisible cage (the masks you wear, and who you really are underneath) 💻 Day 3: Rewriting your internal code (the limiting beliefs running in the background) 🌊 Day 4: The harmony reset (simple body protocols that genuinely change your days) 🧭 Day 5: What you're built for (your ikigai, plus your full AI transformation report) ✨ Day 6: The bonus day where everything comes together ⏳ The honest part: this stays open until June 25. After that it may close, and it may come back as a paid program. So if you've been telling yourself "I'll do it later," later is officially now. 20 days, then it's gone for a while. 🏆 NEW: Weekly leaderboard giveaway Every Friday I'm giving away up to $100 in community credits to the top 10 members on the 7-day leaderboard. How points work: you earn 1 point for every like on your posts, comments, and replies. So show up, share your wins from the challenge, support other people, and you climb. The best part: the leaderboard resets every 7 days. So even if you have 0 points right now, every single week is a brand new shot. First winners announced next Friday.