I don’t feel fully in control of my body and that’s very frustrating for me. I have been working on my body for the last 6 years and still have so much to unpack and heal. I ask others to communicate clearly with me but still struggle to communicate clearly with others… The habit of discipline. Sounds cliche but it’s true. I was never one that was good with discipline or follow through. And it has been something I have been working very hard on these last several months. So continuing to implement discipline in every aspect of my life.

Wins - stayed on top of my nutrition and got to dance in Zumba yday. Which I missed immensely! Protecting my health/energy by getting back to my workouts and nutrition after some set backs. And was asleep before 10:30 each day this week! Disruption? I had to cover a couple hours for another coach while she was out sick. I had planned on handling other tasks I needed to get done - before that would have made me anxious but this week I took it head on with a great attitude and still completed my tasks that I needed to get done. (A day later but I still got them done!) I will show up by putting my phone away. I HATE when my loved ones are on their phone when it’s supposed to be time to spend with each other. So I will do the same and make sure mine is also put away and I have no distractions. What do I need help with? Right now probably emotionally - a conversation was had earlier that now has me fighting old thoughts and emotions. I feel angry and sad at the same time. (Could benefit from a little extra love and acts of service)

Hmmm where do I live for approval? I feel like I relate to MyDalia on this also. Like “I don’t need approval from anyone.” But I think I used to look for that on social media. And maybe sometimes still do. Wondering what people will say with a certain post or story. It’s hard for me to hide with a VERY observant husband and 2 observant kids. But I still try to hide at times when I slip or fail. I don’t like for people to see me fail so I will try to fix it before they notice. Butttt it doesn’t always work out that way lol. When no one is watching sometimes I allow for “old Kristal” to come out. Bursts of anger or impatience. I’m evolving and saved - but sometimes “I be trying to run back to the southside of the Kingdom” 🤣🤣 I’m a beautiful work in progress! And I sure as heck am not who I used to be - even when no one is watching.

Lately I have been making excuses when it comes to my reading. Because I was sick and then fasting, I slept in a little longer than usual and that ate up my reading time. I can create a small win today by listening to my podcast and gather incredible information to make up for missing my reading earlier. 30 days of stacked wins helps me immensely because it’s proof. Proof that I CAN do what I put my mind to. Proof that I CAN be great. Proof that I CAN complete my daily checklist and hit win after win. 3 small wins today - get a JV 30 day, book a RMS, free class or 10 day trial, read for MYSELF tonight after a nice warm shower.

First thing I do is drink my water and read my Bible. Heck yeah it helps me win! I feel anchored in my mornings because this has been almost a year for me now of consistent discipline which has now become a habit. I was a little more tired this morning so I hit snooze on my alarm today. Tomorrow I will be back at it at 5am when that alarm goes off. No snoozing! Water, mushroom coffee, Bible, prayer, journaling, schedule planning, reading, quiet time, motivation podcast - BOOM! Solid mornings!!! 💪🏻