Who’s up and grinding already??

So im hard-core struggling with building these new habits with the weight of life going on. The mothers of my kids. Bills never being home always on the road. I'm literally out of the house from 6 am to 11 at night. I'm just really struggling. Any advice.

Hey fellas. I am rewatching the call from Wednesday and it is hitting home for me big time. I have been really uncomfortable to be vulnerable and reach out. I am really good at supporting others but then lying to myself and keeping it all to myself and struggling internally. I totaled my 4Runner last Friday (not drinking don’t worry) but the stress it inflicted did cause me to have some slips this past week. I gave in to the voice and the numbing. I’m not proud. Doing the workouts and tracking the food isn’t hard for me. It is putting down the habit of the bottle and the inner dialogue. I’m an expert at making excuses for myself. I am doing the uncomfortable and reaching out and admitting it to you guys and myself to find the courage to keep up the fight and momentum I had. Thanks for listening.

First seven days sober in years and I decided to test it hard with 2 Halloween party’s last night. I stayed strong and kept the course. 1 week isn’t much, but I’m pretty damn happy about.