At the start of my fitness journey in highschool I was much more able to perform calisthenics, but now I am only capable of a few pushups and pull ups/chin ups. I do my few get discouraged and default to boxing. Muscle ups and handstands currently seem like a ridiculous feat that is so far out of reach. I let myself go for a few years and now it feels like I need to start all over. Keeping a routine has been impossible for me for years I would like to but I can’t shake my addictions and the depression shatters my progress. I need to build discipline but it has been a struggle. The only progress I have made so far is substances only once a week instead of every day. Even so I have a horrible sleep schedule thanks to my habitual screen use that has cemented since I was 5 or 6 years old. I am stuck with a skinny fat body with meh muscle mass. The only saving grace I have is my diet and even then it is not ideal. The most positive thing I can say about my life is at least I am much more active than I was a few years ago, but nowhere near my peak in highschool. Has anyone been through these issues? If so how did you solve them?

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