I started this program with such great intentions to stay an active part of the community and do my part on following suggestions for weight loss.. and then my mother received bad news and my health took a back seat. She’s 55, a kidney transplant patient, the transplant is failing after 13 years.. and now she’s back on dialysis. Well- apparently when you’ve been on dialysis for as long as she has (this is her second time)- it doesn’t work so well. Her arteries are calcifying. She has to have a triple bypass surgery and she’s too high risk for it, but other options are too dangerous long term. I don’t know how to handle this info and I’m scared to lose my mom. I did what I do best. I withdrew from all my support people and became inactive. Just stuck in limbo with my thoughts. I gained my weight back. It’s only been a week of her in the hospital and they haven’t done the procedure yet. They’re doing it next week- they say. I just feel non-stop sick to my stomach and the stress and anxiety is affecting my sleep. I make ok choices with my food and I’m getting tons of exercise walking around the hospital every day.. but it’s not doing anything to help with my weight goals and whole health. I don’t know what to do.

Today’s proud moment goes to my mom. 🥹👏🏼 She officially learned how to prick her own finger and use her glucometer by herself! For someone who is terrified of needles, this is a HUGE win. Yesterday, I was waiting for her to call so I could drive over and guide her through it. I ended up shifting my gym schedule around, missed my usual time, had to pick up my mini me, and eventually just made F45 work instead. I casually mentioned it to my mom and not to make her feel bad, just in conversation. Well… apparently she took that as motivation. 😂 Today she told me she was determined to learn because she didn’t want to interrupt my training, work, pick-ups, or routine. I told her, “Mom, I will ALWAYS make time for you. I wasn’t complaining!” She smiled and said she was proud because now she can do it on her own. Then she hit me with: “Nurse Lena, you are officially laid off.” 😂😂😂 I’ll happily accept that pink slip. 🤣 Because the real win isn’t that she doesn’t need my help. It’s watching her gain confidence and realize, “I can do this myself.” Sometimes the smallest steps are actually the BIGGEST victories. 💛👏🏼 Friday win: Mom 1 — Nurse Lena 0. 😂

I don’t like to speak too soon, but since using this app and following some of the tips I’ve learned so far, I’m down 4 lbs. I’m sure it’s water weight, but honestly- I’ll take it! Especially bc this is the time of month where I usually weigh the most! I haven’t taken measurements yet, so I don’t know if anything changed there, but my son asked if I’ve lost weight, so it must be visible to some degree!

Hey I’m El - short for Elizabeth. I’m from Florida. My goals are to lose fat and build muscle in a way that is healthy. My death row meal would be 🤔 yangnyeom Korean fried chicken with a side of Korean spicy tofu soup and rice, kimbap, vegetarian sichuan ramen, a cheesy baked potato, and medium rare steak 😳

What's ONE thing you know you should probably be doing for your fitness, but keep putting off? Not something you don't know HOW to do. Something you already KNOW would help, but for whatever reason, you just haven't been doing it. Could be going to bed earlier, getting your steps in, eating more protein, actually showing up to the gym... I'm curious because I think most of us already know at least one thing we could be doing better. I'll go first in the comments. Your turn 👇