I have been feeling lots of dissociation and derealization for the last couple of weeks. I know Abba is sustaining me but it’s kind of discouraging me this morning. This morning I am having attacks come at me that something is wrong with my body. Which is something I can tend to worry about…what’s going on with my physical body… I know I am healthy and my healthy body is responding to unhealthy things in my circumstances. It gets harder and harder to endure through all this when there’s nothing I can do to “change” how I feel because I really need to be in a new location. Only God can make that happen for me due to how impossible that is in this economy and at this time. I feel stuck but I know I am being held. I feel a heaviness on my heart today that feels so crushing. Oh and not to mention how HUMID it is in Ontario right now…that crap alone puts me in a bad mood. Last night it was 90% humidity. I’m like 🤮 I need the SNOW ❄️ Anyway…thank you in advance for praying for me ♥️

Hey guys please pray I find a job and God provides for me financially!! Thanks

Your prayers have had my back in really difficult moments. I love you guys and I think about you often. I also pray for you, my prayer life isn’t that disciplined but I will make an effort to pray for all of you more. I love you. Also my real name is bani Zareth, I just don’t like to have it in most of my social media accounts because since it’s pretty unique I feel like it’s too easy to be found by weird people. I’m from Mexico. I’m 25. Tell me more about you guys

Another month has begun. July is here. I hate July and August if I am being honest. It’s HOT and I am not a fan of summer. The last amazing summer I had was 10 years ago. Ever since then my summers have been filled with lots of traumatic moments. I am trying to take it one day at a time and trust Abba. I want this summer to be different. It’s so hard living in this house. Being around my parents is challenging. I feel like I’m losing my patience with them. My body responds so negatively to them. This house feels so off spiritually today. My mind feels like it can’t even focus on anything. I just feel so foggy and out of it. I know I am stressed and overwhelmed. The last 2 months have been so hard for me. I would really appreciate extra prayers.today. I feel like I am never truly getting out of here but I know that’s a lie. Even this morning on a phone call I was gaslighted 2 times from my parents and I just don’t want to deal with that anymore. I’m tired 😔