Hello Brothers, I wanted to send love and positive energy to you all. I drove to Atlanta Sunday evening and I’ve been here since with my family for the holiday weekend. I realized I missed both calls and I apologize for not communicating my absence with more detail beforehand. Given the timing and unique circumstances I doubt this will happen again. I drove up here to spend time with my mom; she’s on her journey to healing from alcoholism so this has been such a beautiful experience for me to see her in her glow. My younger brother Spartacus (lives here too) is only 2 years apart from me. We have such a special bond because, you all know that have been there to hear my story, it was he and I for most of my childhood. He has seen & experienced what I speak about in our container. My brother’s father was abusive and my mother escaped shortly after my brother was born. Even though she left him, his abusive behavior was imprinted on me. I transferred whatever abusive energy I received onto my younger brother and that eventually created a void between us for many years. Especially after my stepfather met my mother and he was just as bad with his hands. Even though I felt he was evil, my brother took to him because of his on father wound. He never was able to meet his biological father where he would be able to remember him. So before I began my shadow work I never fully accepted that my brother and I may have internalized my stepfathers energy differently. And with that I was too immature to see past it so we clashed more than we meshed and that was fuel to an already burning fire where two boys are growing up together. As we got older and I moved to my aunts for highschool our paths separated. Overtime he heard the stories of my failures and made his own judgements of me, ridiculed me, even down right fist fought me in a vendetta he admitted was fuel by resentment of me because of how I treated him when we were younger I write this all to give context. I spent energy trying to reimagine my relationship with my brother internally because he was someone that was there for most of my journey. This week something shifted. I was myself unapologetically and the screenshot you see is what he sent me today after we wrapped up our time together.

Hello Family, I hope you’re all well. I have been moving through a lot of personal reflection and in this my niece who is a year older than me because of the age of my older sister when she had her. Reached out to me randomly to say hello. It’s been over a year since we last spoke, in this conversation I spoke about where I am and my father got brought up. I know this is her grandfather, but in this moment she brought a new lens to me. She talked about him with so much love, and admiration and even spoke about how he pulled her out of an abusive trauma filled home she was living in under her grandparents on her father’s side. To provide more clear guidance, my older sister (who told me things about my father’s past) was a victim of rape as a teenager and gave birth to my niece as a result. Because of this my niece was in the foster care system because my sister was not mentally stable enough to support her daughter at that time. So eventually my niece ended up with her father’s family. But her grandmother was not very kind to her, so after years apparently of this my niece prayed to have someone help her and one dad my dad was walking down Nostrand ave in brooklyn and she saw him and he saw her. He ran up to her and she begged for him to help her and he did. She told me he never harmed her; or touched her ever. She knows he is very intense and strict but she loves him so much and she always will. This is important to me because as you all saw in my father story, I was painting a picture of a “monster” but then out of the blue the universe/ancestors sent a new voice and perspective into my awareness for my father. That being said I plan to have a conversation with him and really feel out where I am with him, I love you all.

Hey brothers, It is with some regret that I’ll be stepping back from my participation in the AFF and NOW Men’s Circle calls for now. As we head into the winter months, with shorter days, I feel the need to turn inward—spending more time with myself, my family, and tending to my home life. I am deeply grateful for these past months in AFF and for all the experiences and connections this year in the NOW. Please continue to keep me in your prayers, and know that I will do the same for you. Thank you, and love to you all, brothers and fathers. Peace and love.

Hello Brothers and Uncle, I hope all is well. Uncle thank you for the invitation to step into the fire. I know some people may read what you post, could potentially take offense, and leave because they know that they are not as present. I see your invitation and your attention to detail. We commit to many things outside of our inner work, most of it rooted in subconscious programming. So more importantly commitment is key to continue what we’re doing and I fully accept and give you grace Uncle for what you are asking of us. That being said, I want to step in and make sure that I am doing my part to be as present as I can in this space, I realize my last post was six days ago and I could be a little more present as well so I will be more active. Brothers see the opportunity in an invitation instead of the opportunity for potential exit. I love you all, peace and positive energy. Below is a picture of my baby girl she’s two months now. Today is a beautiful day so far. I have been home with her today while my partner takes the boys to the school that she runs, and for me, these moments are very precious because I get to be in the now with her. And when she naps, I get to tap in with myself so very grateful all the love, brothers See you tonight.

Just reflecting on Uncle songs accountability share, i also want to own my part in this and express my love and gratitude to the call out. Tbh i don't have a reason other than not choosing it this week. i kinda put it on side basket list while i was focusing on one of my other commitments more. i feel i can show up here more consistently and honestly admit some avoidance of responsibilities towards specific commitments in my life this past week. saying yes to A.F.F was a commitment i intend to honour. so with that I will see you soon brothers in a minute 😛 🤙🏽