The belief that's been holding me back most: "I can never be consistent” “I always lose interest and give up before I can be good at anything” “I never follow through” and “I can’t trust myself” Where it came from: A lifetime of trying a bunch of different things and eventually losing interest My new code: What I think and speak of the most becomes the truth. My Future Self statement: "I am the kind of person who is consistent. I’m a clean organized person. I’m a trustworthy person. Debugging in progress...

📅 Daily Check-in - September 4, 2026 💭 Reflection: "Just when I thought this journey couldn't get any tougher. Yesterday Mum & I had to make a heart wrenching decision. The decision was to pull all of Dad's heart meds. He was going to die through one of four possibilities: the rectal cancer with its secondaries, heart failure, COPD, and his circulation shutting off (arterial flow to his legs was very poor). What was the kindest way for him to die? IT certainly wasn't the rectal cancer and it's secondaries; we've seen evidence to that. The doctor said he could go at any time now and that we should spend as much time as possible with him. We haven't even told my siblings or the wider whanau (family) about this. We're just quietly absorbing it all in for the moment. At first when the Hospice Doctor hinted at this option, it threw me off track and my heart stopped for a beat. That was the last thing I was expecting - discussions around pain management yes, discussions around how he should die no. Once the initial shock passed, the observer that has grown in me, looked at Dad staring into space trying to hide the pain from Hospice and then at Mum, slowly wasting away with sheer exhaustion. I realised that agreeing to removing the heart meds was probably kindest on Dad and ultimately on Mum too especially as he's struggling to swallow the tablets now. So why does this feel so heavy? I've been preparing for this moment (well not quite this path) for a while now, since his diagnosis in February this year. Deep down this heavy feeling is because I feel as though I have issued the death warrant. I don't even think he's aware of what we've done - that's probably the hardest part to take in. So for now, we just take it day by day, waiting for the end to come." 📊 Wellbeing Scores: 😊 Happiness: 3/10 ⚡ Energy: 4/10 🎯 Focus: 4/10 😌 Calmness: 3/10 🌙 Sleep Quality: 4/10 🔥 Motivation: 4/10 ⭐ Average: 3.7/10 ✅ Activities from yesterday: 💧 Stayed Hydrated 🥗 Healthy Eating 🍺 No Alcohol

I have had to sew this potholder for a few weeks now and I finally did it today after doing a face and neck cold shower. The day is of to a good start. 🥳

I watched replays of days 3 and 4 today! I missed yesterday, but today I did day 3, then took my dog for a long walk. After an hour or so I came home and made a cup of tea and did day 4! I'm loving the three questions at the end of each challenge, they're really making me dig deep for my answers.

ADHD Awakening Assessment - The Truth About Your Brain I'm a counsellor and life coach and over the years have helped so many people unpack their 'stuff'. Now I am finally doing the part of my work that is just for me. I've done lots of inner work in the past but this is deeper and more profound. I've realised that my brain is running on an operating system that was external. If someone else needed something done I am so productive but if it's somethig for me it can wait. I was taught early by my grandmother who raised me that her needs were more important than mine. Promises to myself were allowed to be broken but chores for her were not.