day 4 done, if not dusted! this greater definition, greater clarity is so encouraging. the changes are doable. rather like untangling spaghetti!

My inner voice changes shape depending on the crime. When I fail, it's almost tender: "Let it go. Your success is just around the bend." When I don't follow through, the tenderness vanishes and the contract appears: "You have to follow through if you want to win." That's the belief underneath everything - that the reward comes only after the performance, never before it. "Nobody else will do it for you. And you won't let anybody do it anyway." That last sentence is the oldest one in the whole set, and it wasn't originally mine. It was installed in a house where wanting help and wanting warmth were the same dangerous request. Yesterday, I didn't want to stop working on my homework to answer these questions, because they were "very relevant in my case... very interesting to me." No contract. No winning required. No forcing. Just something that was finally about me, pulling me forward instead of pushing me. Interesting, isn't it?

Day 3 done. and the precourse work completed! i was just about to say i am so behind, only to appreciate that i actually did more that two days work in one. And I can still get to day 4 on day 4!! if (when/as) I can get up early tomorrow and complete day 4 before class 5. typical though, always end up pushing the envelope!

Just watched day 1 replay. Got behind...😁

My lowest Harmony dimension: career and work - I am an over-giver. Wind-down pattern I noticed: I look at my screens way too late, do the pre-bedtime cram. (bad) Morning pattern I noticed: I'm pretty good on this, except too much coffee! I decided to close my open loop: and it was a big hurdle in the end, quite easily tackled. And it made me feel: Like a grown-up! I am enjoying feeling like an organised, responable person and my leisure time feels more earned.