So last sunday brendan tried to explain a distinction is vs isn't. This whole week I was trying to understand what this means in my own experience and I faced few things i want to share and contemplate about. So basically when there was some situation in my life which felt "heavy" in my mind like getting overhelmed by my own thinking, i've tried using this as a calm down mechanism, like i've tried using "is" as primary state over isn't so my mind just stops from going even more into thinking. Then i've noticed that this itself felt like some some suppresion or ignoring my mind state as it is right now, it's like my mind itself tried to calm it down by using "is". Main difference is that in these situations it feels like i'm ignoring what comes up even tho everything in isn't is kind of unnesecary, it still feels like i'm somehow suppresing it. Like i'm ignoring my mind so mind itself doesn't feel ignored. Then i rewatched peters video of "how to stop self-destructive behaviour like for the fifth time to see what i'm missing into my integration. It seems to me that "is" is kind of state which you cannot get tuned into by wanting it to do something for you, cause it comes from the same place where things isn't right. It's like my own mind tries to use these hearsays, to stop thinking, but that doesn't resolve the problem, cause it itself is a same thing. "is" is just now as it is without needing to do anything about it. My mind seems to complicate itself by using beliefs and assumptions that feels "higher truths" even tho I don't comprehend it by myself. It's like my own mind plays these games again and again and again just using different faces. But again there's this problem comes up where i tend to fall into self-destructive behaviour like smoking ciggaretes, which i don't want in my life, but peter also explained that this whole frusturation happens as i understand from imagined future scenarios, like I have to be this monk like stop having these all sorts of addictions. Also he tells about the social domain which all of this comes up in the first place, like drinking coffee, smoking and etc is did only to be kind of accepted into our social domain, he mentions that living in society has it own consequences like what i've mentioned. For me it's a war between what i want to become(imagined scenario of future self) and what i want to do now(smoke a ciggareete for example, it feels wrong yet right at the same time, also there's a third voice that says drop all of this shit off(but it's also minds work. It's like what i've come up with it's always my mind doing these games on me even tho i'm the one whose doing the mind(according to peter). Even now my mind by writing this wants some clear way to get rid of itself, is just another face, another method of staying alive, another way of saying "hey something is wrong with me", "hey, im special I cannot smoke a ciggarete, am i so weak that even i(special) cannot resist from smoking?" it's like i'm living in a society so i have to have identity, which has to be protected and saved, and when this doesn't happen i suffer, and if it feels save then I face into destructive behaviour, cause I need something noticeable to fix. Mind is just so smart on deceiving itself, imagine using this power for something greater then bullshiting yourself all day long. Maybe i just need to understand that i will die no matter what I will be, i'm not special, i'm not unique, i'm nothing, just a grain of sand in a desert, but this leads to nihilism, like i'm worthless, what's point of trying, why do anything then, but it's always mind doing it's shit, can't i just smoke a ciggarrete for a damn sake and not go into existential shit my mind comes up with 😂

Thanks to Victor for the “I am an object moving around other objects” exercise. Watching/feeling ME move my body feels useful as a tool to pursue “What am I?”

Last week I had a dyad session with Chapin and he mentioned that he has an uncle that had a giant breakthrough years ago, related to wondering why he suffered. After that, and apparently much work, Chapin tells me he basically doesn't suffer. (Here I'm talking about the kind of suffering we're working on in the group on Sundays, and what Peter is talking about in the book. You know, the kind that is created only in your mind. I'll just call it suffering.) I wondered what it must be like for Chapin's uncle. Then I wondered what it might be like for me if I didn't suffer anymore. After a bit of contemplation, I suddenly realized it is actually possible! (To not suffer anymore.) I then asked, why not give it a try for real? So I did. And it led to a dramatic and easily noticeable decrease in my suffering! Weird isn't it? All I had to do is realize it's possible and this alone made a dramatic difference in my efforts. Of course it helps to also know where the place is. But I already knew that. It was the creation of a new possibility that made the difference for me.

Before my phone decided it wasn't playing, I was listening to talk about the nature of objects. I remembered that the perception of what is, is limited by our sense "organs(?)". If a bee was looking at the table it would see something very different, or if I had electron microscopes for eyes I would see it as molecules. Is it actually possible to see anything as it is or is the point to realise that we never can?

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