So i'm new in this work, I have many questions, but it feels like answers won't help from others, I'm having hard time writing this, because I want to clear my confusion with the answers I get, but this whole conflict of not-knowing what to do is also happening in mind, sooo, does anyone have some possibilities to share what to do with this constant conflict in my head, it's like i've had insight or I don't know what it was, but at that moment I was hyper aware how my mind was somethig that was happening without any control, like it was something seperate from my being, from that point I want to believe that mind is something i can completly ignore, but who is the one who tries to ignore it , and by continuesly having conflict like this and wanting to reach this state of seeing my mind like i saw in that moment is getting in my way of doing it, idk