Kia ora team 💛 Confession: I've been MIA. And "I was out of my normal rhythm" isn't a good enough excuse, so I'm not going to hide behind it. Here's the real story. I'm five hours from home on a three-week house stint, test-driving the location-independent life I'm building toward. My future ikigai, live and unscripted. Then two weeks in, influenza flattened me. I'm currently carrying so much medication that if you shook me upside down I'd rattle like a maraca. 🎶 Isolated, unwell, five locals for company, and a beachfront I couldn't swim or kayak in. Cue the world's smallest violin: "What am I even doing out here?" But here's the part that actually sits with me, and it's not about me being unwell. 𝗜'𝘃𝗲 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘀𝗲𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂. I've missed being in the thick of your journeys, celebrating your wins, cheering you through the hard days. Encouraging you is one of my favourite parts of being here, and I went quiet right when some of you were showing up and doing the brave stuff. That doesn't sit right with me. Not a pity party, just an honest: that wasn't great community membership from me, and I'm sorry. 𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲'𝘀 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗰𝗮𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗺𝘆 𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻: I dropped out the moment my environment changed. If this nomadic life is really my future, "I'm out of my normal cycle" can't be the thing that knocks me over every time. I don't need more willpower. I need better scaffolding, habits that travel with me instead of living in my house back home. The reframe I keep leaning on: 𝘀𝘂𝗰𝗰𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗶𝘀𝗻'𝘁 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗯𝗮𝗰𝗸. 𝗡𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘀 𝘁𝘄𝗶𝗰𝗲. So this is me, coming back. Rattling, but back. 🙋‍♀️ Over the next few days I'm going to have a good look around the platform, catch up on where you're all at, and make sure I'm welcoming our new members properly. Back to doing what I love here. 💛 Debz ✨

Just discovered my Ikigai, and it finally named something I've circled my whole life: I'm the person who helps others navigate the frightening seasons of life. The 2am research, the medical puzzles I've solved for family, and even my Medicare work - they're all the same thing. Analytical mind, loving heart, one purpose. Turns out I never aimed too low. I just aimed my intelligence at love. And that was never wrong.

Just did the first part of my Operating Manual and finally saw it: I finished the part of the new house people live in, but I can't finish the garage that was meant to be mine, because "we already know I don't finish so I can't fail." Turns out that's not a discipline problem. It's a whole strategy I never noticed I was running. Did anyone else cry when they did the mirror report? Jim called it!

Just did the first part of my Operating Manual and realized the word "difficult" has followed me since childhood - and I've been aiming every planner and app at the wrong layer the whole time. Turns out the phone winning at night isn't weakness, it's my empty willpower tank meeting a trap I set for myself. Moving the phone across the room tonight.

I have missed connecting with the community but things are happening and I haven’t been able to stay on track the way I’d have liked to be. I’m somewhat frustrated to see that my time blindness is still a big issue and that I haven’t kept all my promises to myself. It feels like lack of self love but in the middle of it all I still manage to let my inner voice be heard telling me it’s ok, I’m not broken or falling apart. Hope to be back soon