Perfectionist and people pleasing (also invisible one).. see it’s turned into caretaker and controller in certain situations. It's been a lot to handle. I loved being creative with crafts, art, baking, playing outdoors. Micro task steps 1. pick made decorative origami box for neighbor 2. fill with chosen things 3. write note/card 4. pick time to go there and what I’ll say 5. go

I have a migraine today, slept in and now have run the replay. I Just finished the meditation. Visualizing myself in my daily life as it is...no problem. When Jim said step out of that person into the other person, I immediately saw myself standing at a door, with drink in hand, shaking my head and turning and walking away from the whole mess! What does THAT say about me!! 😁I couldn't help it, I started laughing! I finally got it together and worked on seeing myself finishing tasks. But in truth, when I am away from here, I am much more relaxed, and don't have as much anxiety as I do at home.

Old belief: I’m doing this life wrong Origin: being in trouble/misunderstood for what I was not taught, how to handle abnormal toxic interaction from sibling Reframe: they were in the wrong, and I was trying my best each day though it got worse Identity statement: I am the kind of person who wants to learn/grow, and can decipher what to do, while holding my peace (remain in expanded state of fun, joy, intelligence rather than rattled, restricted, and abused). Debugging in progress:

The belief that's been holding me back most: "There goes another unproductive day." when I'm not motivated to do the tasks I need to do that I find so VERY and absolutely BORING. Where it came from: People telling me I'm wasting my day or I need to stop procrastinating. My new code: "Today didn't go the way I intended, but a hard day isn't a permanent pattern." OR "My capacity was lower than my expectations today. What friction stopped me?" OR "I didn't complete [X], but I survived a day of high mental friction. Restoring my baseline is still valid work." OR "Today is over, and I don't need to earn my sleep. I will set up just one microscopic step for tomorrow morning." My Future Self statement: "I am the kind of person who is capable of starting tasks, even boring ones, and is capable of completing tasks and entire projects." Debugging in progress...

The mask I've been wearing most: Invisiable not seen How exhausting it's been: being someone im not has lost me a lot of time friends etc What I loved as a kid fishing : being with family fishing with my dad reading Friction Audit complete, this are the exact steps i have to take: Sending that email to my auntie 1. Open my email 2. Click "new message" 3. Type the person's name 4. Write 2-3 sentences (not a novel) 5. Press send