Just completed the ADHD Awakening Assessment and I'm honestly shaken in the best way. The report showed me that the systems I used to rely on weren't real organization - they were a survival strategy. And when they collapsed, I thought I was broken. Turns out I was just finally seeing my real brain for the first time. The part about being "loyal to everyone but myself" hit hard. Starting to understand that showing up for myself isn't selfish - it's overdue.

It is so easy to get distracted … earlier today my daughter told me that she went into her online banking app and was going to send her friend some money that she owed her. She saw a transaction that she had done and then went onto the website for that company. She was scrolling in their online shop and looking for birthday presents for her sister, when she realised an hour had passed and she had completely forgotten to send her friend the money. She takes after her mother! Why is it so easy to get distracted and go down a rabbit hole? Is it the internet and the huge choices we now have. I do not remember being like this before the internet, maybe I was but don’t remember. What do you think?

Although it was very confronting.. i think i can see it as a big win today. I started on my new job on January 5th. It involves stock management ( taking notes of what we have and order New) at the depot. Thats one of the many things i have to do. I noticed that again I made an error. My co-worker said to me that we need to figure out how to solve this. Because she notices that my brain sometimes wonders of and isnt always present. She sejusted that one week i do this and the next week she does that to by that way she can correct me where i need it. Immediatly i feelt that my brain was twisting her words into you are not capable so I'm going to check on you. Instead of swallowing it I told her that this was how it came to me. That I knew she didnt meant it like that but I just couldn’t help that my head started twisting her words. We continued talking about it and how hard I tried to not cry she got something lose in me. She hold me and told me many times that I am good the way I am and that they are happy to have me. I was a little disappointed that I started crying. The feeling of why couldnt I keep myself together. But later on i corrected that feeling with the tought of succes. I mentioned how I felt , I opened up and didnt just suck it in. For that I am proud of myself today 🙌

Hi, my name is Duane, I’m from Idaho, USA, and I work in Sales. I'm 53 and I believe that i have had ADD ( undiagnosed ) since I was about 13. I always just thought I wasn't ambitious. Ive always held jobs (Not a Career), Played sports and in early life was socially adaptable. As I started to get older it started to get worse to a point where I can't start anything and finish it. There are so many things I would like to achieve but can't even bring myself to start them because I will quit it again. I'm in a good place Mentally and Financially but feel like I can achieve more. I have many interests but I don't do any of them because I would rather just do the easy thing and cheap gratification. I know i'm deeper than that but feel I am paralyzed. I'm just starting to figure and in turn myself out but am really lost on what to do. Thank you for reading

I just realized I forgot an appointment with my friend 😩 She drove 20 km to a café where I had booked a table for brunch and then I didn't show up!! The clocks changed to summer time last night which tend to mess with my inner clock. On top of that I had some technical problems this morning and had to turn off my cell phone. So she called and wrote to hear what was happening, where I was? And I didn't hear anything. Now I have such a bad conscience, I’ve been writing her but she hasn’t answered my messages… so rejection sensitivity is hitting me hard! I don't know what I want to get out of writing this here... maybe just a little sympathy? A piece of good advice? A virtual hug and "I've been there"?