I hope everyone had a fantastic day . My day was an eh I made a new beaded phone case took me about 1 hour 30 mintues to make it because I had to individually put every bead on . It came out so cute and amazing. Hope everyone sleeps good tonight.

After the tough love advise you said on your live I could not sleep. It sad a person online is more blunt and honest with me than people I have known for years. I some times wonder if people have selfish motives when giving advise (not you Tyler). You were right …I was scared. Which made me look for the smallest reason to break it off before he had any chance to hurt me. So I sat up til like 2am. Restless writing and thinking pro and cons why I was scared , good and bad, what I have to lose and what I could gain. Talk about overthinking everything . 230 this morning I pick up my phone and called not thinking this man could be sleeping and has to work in few hours . He answered and asked what was wrong voice. Lol. We talked til he had to go to work. We are still meeting on Friday. Thank you Tyler for the tough love advice.

I feel like I wake up every day and fake it til I make it. You know force the smile, always say I’m good when some one ask. Going thru the motions of life but not really living.

I will cry today. And move forward tomorrow. I know I did the right thing even though it doesn’t feel like it today.

Today is a struggle with anxiety.