Know myself better - go to know that even though i dont watch full football seasons anymore, its still gutwrenching when the Bills lose in the playoffs. and even if I get over it much quicker because i dont watch full seasons, i'm still in community with people who do, and i have to strategize on how to tune out. Do the actions I strategized as consistent as possible - gold star system worked well. i felt consistent, but even better, i could go back and look at my consistency or lack thereof. its also nice to finally have a system to fall back on when life is lifeing, so i at least have a baseline Be flexible in how I get those things done, while still getting those things done - i had a migrane take out my whole day last wed and a little of my thursday, and some family stuff pop up over the weekend. I'm learning how to accept rest so my body can recover, and happy that ive learned strategies to be able to show up for family while still having boundaries. Understand that things don’t always go as planned, and that adjustments are necessary for consistency - see above

first, having the experience of identifying as spirit/soul/source for periods of time during journeys over the years, and integrating them has has been a nice break and helpful in restructuring how i think about race and identity. at the same time coming back to the world that runs on racism is challenging and its been helpful speaking to other ppl who have had similar experiences to trade strategies on how to balance those truths and live them out. How you show up in the world as a man? - yes. race affects how i show up in the world as a man, because i am aware that the full range of my emotions, particularly anger, historically get policed, literally and figuratively in a different way. Race adds another factor in deciding whether i am willing to deal with the repercussions of expressing myself, depending on my set and the setting How you see yourself as a man? - yes at times because in the body, how i show up as a man at any given moment may be influenced by how i see myself connected to my immediate family’s history in this country, and black ppl as a whole. Externally, its been important to me to become more aware of the affects of the imagery through marketing and promoting of the many different products, art and ideas on my sense of self as a black man How you see other men based upon your ideas of their race(s) in contrast and comparison to yours? - yes. because many white men i’ve met weren’t taught about how race is constructed and how the concept affects their sense of self and identity as well, it can be like walking through a room of people with blindfolds on, who don’t know they’re blindfolded. It can be extremely difficult to tell who is being intentionally racist vs, who is deeply unaware of their bias, vs someone who is trying to figure it out. that is very draining, especially when trying to see someones humanity while also keeping yourself safe. This does not only apply to white men, but answering this question when it comes to interacting with other black men, and/or other people of color is much different

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Know myself better Do the actions I strategized as consistent as possible Be flexible in how I get those things done, while still getting those things done Understand that things don’t always go as planned, and that adjustments are necessary for consistency

For me, the morning goes: drink water, meditate, eat light, workout. All of it helps my mood and focus. I heard somewhere that water when you wake up is very important because you haven’t had it for 6-8 hours at that point. At my best I have it near the bed. I try to have two glasses, and it makes my body come back on line quicker than I do without it. 10-20 min of meditation is crucial for me because it replaces scrolling, (and I love/hate scrolling 😅). it gives me a chance to get focused on what I’m doing for the rest of the morning without talking to myself like a drill sergeant, and keeps my mind from focusing on whatever crazy shit happened in the world as soon as I wake up. Lastly, the gym (ideally) or a workout at home helps me get moving. Ideally I get out of the house, and even if I don’t feel like it, my morning is better if all I do is get to the gym and walk on the treadmill, or doing jump rope vs not moving at all. I wind up using that energy for whatever I have to do next. This week I’m going to add the 3 journal questions Tah mentioned in the morning. To be honest, I don’t feel like doing the whole condor journal right now, but I’ve answer those questions consistently before and it’s helpful, and getting consistent might give me the momentum to do a condor workbook at some point soon

@Jared Fenn it’s 4 questions, my bad: Who am I ? (Right now. Ex: I am the person that doesn’t want to get out of the bed) What is my unconscious commitment right now ? (What have I been committing to that has been keeping me from doing things and being who I wanna be every day?) What is my new conscious commitment for the day? (What is my commitment that I’ve been aware of, that I’ve been getting in the way of, that I want to commit to right now?) What are 3 things I’m gonna do to love on myself today?