I really struggle with intention. I'm learning, so @Tah Whitty tell me if I'm wrong...it is the pause between awareness and action. Where I realize something and before I jump into action/reaction I need to pause and make sure I'm heading in the right direction. Gonna go religious here...A big part of Christ's teaching is to repent and often organized religion uses shame and fear and you come to believe that repentance is about apologizing and feeling remorse. I've learned that the real meaning of repentance is course correction. I was a missionary in Chile for 2 years and in Spanish they would say "I was on the way to the store and I repented because I forgot my wallet" After I'd heard it a while I really looked at the definition and meaning and my eyes were opened considerable. Christ doesn't command us to constantly be shamed and remorseful, rather He's telling us to consistently correcting our course towards truth and light. In the ManOS language you could almost say Christ wants us to make sure that we are consistently intentional in all we do. Making sure our direction and energy is in the direction we choose it to be; to act and not be acted upon. This is difficult for me. I'm wired to react, fix, do...to pause is hard for me. In my current OS, hesitation = doubt; doubt = weakness. Decisiveness is a trait men should have; don't be 'wishy washy' "make a decision, man!". I need to rewrite this code in me: pausing IS being decisive. Intention can be as simple and looking inward and saying does this feel right? Why am I heading in this direction? is it out of intention and what I want? or out of fear...too often my direction is out of fear "what will they think of me" "What if I fail"... Cody (Not sure your full name so I can't tag you) on our call this week said something that really helped me to be able to get into a better intentional mindset this week. Since then, when I'm feeling anything other than joy, I can ask myself "am I where I am supposed to be?" because too often I ask "am I where I think I *should* be...or...where my wife wants me to be...or a client...or an employee" If I am where I'm supposed to be then nothing else really matters. Things will work out for me if I just BE where I am supposed to BE. I guess this all plays into the attributes of violence. I've realized much of my issues stem from a need to control chaos by any means necessary and the easiest and most reliably is to worry about everything else around me before myself. So its hard for me to be intentional because it feels selfish to choose my own peace before the peace of those around me. I am where I'm supposed to be. It may not be the right place in 30 minutes, but for now it is.

I’m looking for some help, so please lmk what strategies yall have been using to separate the two. And/or what happens when you use the strategies. Right now I'm using the three P’s and it’s been working.

What has shifted in how you see yourself since beginning this movement? I see myself as someone who finally has system I can learn and fall back on, that isn't limiting. I knew I needed something, and after the last condor I was waiting for the condor course to be uploaded to stool so I could take the course again for support. But by the time i realized they had been uploaded, ManOS was popping up on my feed. What area of your life feels most aligned with your new awareness? In general my ability to strategize, take action and be accountable. I was always good at strategy, but my action was just ‘ok’ and because i’d silo’d off in a lot of ways, I wasn’t working with the ppl around me to help me stay accountable. I didn’t really know how to talk to people in my life about keeping me accountable. Asking for that just made me feel like i couldn’t take care of my own business, like I was childish. Posting here is step one of accountability, and from the last call, I’m learning how to pick and talk to people in my life about being accountability partners. Where does integration feel challenging or uncomfortable, and what might that discomfort be showing you? Integration feels challenging when i don't track my progress. it also feels challenging when I am tracking my progress and I can see that I’m not taking action consistently. I’m able to catch the fact that my first instinct is to shame myself into accountability, but I’m still frustrated that it happens, and that it takes a while to pull myself out of a spiral and speak to myself with care How will you know you are living in wholeness? I know when I am living in wholeness when I’m not comparing, when my breathing is consistently coming from my stomach, when i have easy access to joy and dance, and when I have compassion for myself and others. I know I’m already whole, but the main issues are that it’s very easy to forget, and that I have practices that remind me of my wholeness that I don’t do often enough to continue to strengthen the muscle.

What changes when you speak from ownership instead of about someone else? When i speak form ownership, i’m sharing as opposed to trying to dominate the conversation. Through sharing whats coming up for me, I can sometimes become aware of answers to questions that i'd been trying to answer, whether it directly relates to the topic at hand or not. How does it feel to be witnessed without being fixed, and to do the same for another man? To be witnessed without being fixed feels safe and, based on how the person witnesses, can lead to trusting a person enough to ask their opinion. And to do that for someone feels like I'm really helping them without getting in the way.

I had an awesome text message exchange with my Dad today. It was beautiful to get messages from him like "Always enjoy talking to ya" and "You're the Best". It warms my heart and is awesome to see and feel as I've been finding a lot of gratitude and compassion for him more recently. What's something you're grateful for when it comes to your dad/father/pops/old man? Drop it in the comments. I'll start.