Today my last baby is turning 5 😭
I remember being in labor 5 years ago thinking "enjoy every moment because this is the last time you experience that."
How is time going so fast?
I felt the urge to share here how I feel about my kids birthday because I know a lot of moms here are in the trenches of building a business while raising little ones and all that we want is spend more time with them but also being able to provide for the family and make sure they have everything they need, and that takes money, and time, and energy. So I wanted to say, I see you, I am right there with you and we are all doing amazing.
I have been very very overwhelmed and stressed these last months. With financial pressure but also with a lot of personal stuff going on. And my little boy is very demanding. Wants mom for every single thing he does, take 90 minutes to fall alseep and shows up in our bed at 2am, everyday. It's been 5 wild years for us and I am tired. Lately, I caught myself telling him "at 5 years old kids can dress themsleves/put on their shoes/tidy up their room/eat with a fork...". His answer "I am not 5 yet".
And then this morning, when I put him on my bed to dress him he said "remember what you said mom? 5 years old should dress themselves" and then I watched him dress himself... yep, I cried.
Does it mean it's done? Now I have no kiddos who need my help to get dressed in the morning? I mean, he is right, but also, I am not ready.
Who else is living the dilemna between wanting them to be more independent so we have more time but also not wanting to let go of the "baby" stage? I must not be the only one.
One thing I am very grateful for is that I built a life where I could take time with him this morning in bed and then extra time at breakfast to celebrate. We got fun cupcake to share with his friends at daycare and I will be picking him up early to do cake and presents at home. Then tomorrow he asked for bowling and all you can eat sushi (yes, my kids have expensive taste 🙃) and we will be able to do that early in the day because we have built a life that allows us to take the time for them.
If you are in the early stage and overwhelmed by everything you have to do. For the business. For the kids. For the house. For your husband. For you. Know that this is all temporary.
One day your last baby will wake up and want to dress himself.
And this stage will be gone for good.
Enjoy every moment now. Life goes so fast.
Love,