PTL ladies I feel like I missed so much I have been present in something but blank in my brain I took a couple of falls and yes one of my fear triggers. Before it happened in my mind I would see my falls and each time I either got hurt real bad or died. I was shaking it off reburking it and praying. So my knee pop fell hard on the floor and hard time to get up, 2nd time was bad it time hurt a part of me that was already in pain. Found myself praying and crying then hearing or thinking see sons not here, church family busy with their family or problems you alone just like them what you going to do now. A slap in the face then I was giving an assignment where I felt unworthy and asked why. But each day I have been reading or praying exercising I'm on a slow hill but with the shaking pressing and push I'm going to work on my trust and faith in God because this storm cloud has to move.