Morning thoughts…
You know when you wake up in the middle of a dream and how the two worlds mix themselves together. In that moment, you don’t know what is real and what isn’t and you’re just confused. That’s how I woke up this morning.
My brain is buzzing, a list of stuff I have to do is vibrating through my skull. The mastermind starts in 90 minutes, I really want to be working on my funnels, but I really want to be at the mastermind. I guess the good thing is that it’s two things I want to be doing and not two things I don’t want to be doing.
I also have to create the videos to add to my funnel. They’re just short one minute welcome videos. It just takes me a while to set up my space where I record so I have a white wall behind me for my map, as well as good lighting.
I slept but I woke up exhausted. I know I only got five hours of sleep so that’s probably it. But my brain didn’t settle last night.
I was thinking about all the time I had that I could’ve been editing my videos and working on the funnel, but I procrastinated. It all should’ve been done a long time ago, yet I don’t want to beat myself up about it. I am the only one who put myself in this situation right now. The videos should’ve been edited the day after I recorded them. Now I am months behind, with a weekend to catch up. Should have, should have, should have… No matter what way I look at it, I need to understand the basics of funnels and editing.
My procrastination is often when I don’t know how to do something. I get overwhelmed and instead of breaking it down into smaller bites, I just don’t do it at all. It’s “all or nothing” philosophy. Now that I’m aware of this is what I’m doing, I’m simply going to have to learn to break things down into smaller steps.
I just remembered something I did yesterday – the Vitamix is often in the dishwasher when I get up, and I don’t feel like cleaning it so I just use a shaker - but there’s no shaky thing inside of it. Because the filtered water is connected to the fridge, my shake is cold and gets those powdered lumps. I hate lumps in my morning shake, and I feel like I’m wasting my protein powder when it sticks to the sides, so I do drink the lumps. Anyways, I warmed up my water to 50°C then mixed it together and it was like hot chocolate. That is what I will do from now on because it made it really, really good.
I’m still trying to unscramble my thoughts in my head. Right now it’s even difficult for me to do a brain dump because they’re so disorganized.
I remembered another thing I did yesterday as well. Every year, for the past 30 years, we’ve made gingerbread houses for Christmas with my friend. My friend and I started it before we even had kids. She called me yesterday to ask when we wanted to do them this year. Although she knew I moved, she didn’t know I was in Alabama. We’ve never missed a year, but I said I’ll be back mid January.
I have no idea what’s gonna happen in my life between now and when I return. I’m leaving everything open, because I’m on an adventure. I don’t want to overstay my welcome anywhere, but it’s also very nice to be out of the Canadian winter. I’m definitely just going to need to go with the flow and stay in the present moment.
Time to get up, and take my day in bite-size pieces. I know Kimberly‘s priority will be the mastermind, which requires my iPad. There are parts of the mastermind that will not apply to me because I’m not actively selling Legacy Builder, I just have it inside my community for people who are interested in purchasing it. It’s the information inside of it that I’m using. I bought it for education purposes without even understanding master resale rights (MRR).
My focus is my community and doing summits. I will eventually go to social media with clips, but in the meantime, some of my speakers will be promoting my summit on their social media.
I realize I just need to do my role in all of it, embrace everything this summit has taught me, be so grateful for all the conversations I’ve had with these amazing women, and let the outcome go. It’s not that I have no expectations… It’s more I’m surrendering to the outcome because it has been an amazing experience no matter what.
When I think of everything I have learned in the process - about my community, myself, tech funnels, all of it - I wouldn’t trade it. It’s been constantly on my mind, but in a good way, not in a cluttering kind of way. The tech part did caused me to procrastinate, and the video editing is a struggle because I’m so bad at it right now.
I’m not just bad at video editing, but I’m bad in the videos. My eyes wander all over the place, I keep forgetting my words, I’m trying to do it on an iPad where the camera is off to the side. I’m almost thinking of releasing the videos in order so people can see the growth. With the only exception being the video I did last with Dr. Stephanie. It will be on the first day because her free gift is starting soon.
I’ll figure it out once I have the editing done as well. I don’t want two people with similar businesses going back to back. The truth is most of them have businesses where they simply want to help other women grow and glow up. Each of these speakers could’ve talked about 10 topics. So even though they’re in the same type of field, they all have their own twist on things because of their past experiences.
Women collaborate, we do not compete. And if you’re competing with other women, you’re in your masculine. How’s that for “you didn’t know what you didn’t know”.
I could talk about feminism, but I was about to get up. I can’t help myself though… Feminism is a farce. Yes, people should get equal pay for doing the same job and have the same opportunities, but if you look in corporate, feminism is a woman who’s given up all her femininity, which is the most powerful thing she possesses. And then was put into a world where she’s expected to work full-time as well as still do everything else.
In so many of the corporate fields, a woman is just adapting to the old white man way of doing things, for they designed the system. The only difference is she’s wearing a skirt with her suit jacket. She’s not bringing her femininity into the corporation to change the way things are done to make it a better place. She’s having to toss “herself” aside when she walks in the door, and morph into a man in a woman’s body.
Then she’s expected to go home, turn back into her feminine as soon as she enters the house, and become the nurturer and take care of her family. That’s what’s leaving us exhausted. We have the mental load at home and the mental load at work. We’re required to be completely different people in both roles. Physically, hormonally, mentally - this does not add up.
This is also one of the reasons this summit is so important to me. Women are trying to fill way too many roles that are outside of them. It’s not that we are not capable, it’s that we are not being authentic. If you love what you do, and it completely vibes with you, you go for it. As long as you are being you.
Our issues begin when we’re having to be someone else in order to fill our role. It’s exhausting having to have three or four personalities. We need our one authentic personality, that we can tweak depending on the situation we are in. Of course we have different roles of worker, mother, spouse, friend… But everyone around us should know our basic character and values. Those should not change.
When I was talking to my friend yesterday, I realize that when I was car camping, and had declutter 90% of my possessions, that’s what finally cleared my brain enough to truly look inside. Once my car situation was set up - I had a good car camping spot, a comfortable warm bed, knew where my food supply was coming from, and the rec centre was open from 7 AM till midnight so I always had a place with power and water - it also helped that the weather cooperated - my mind was able to rest because my mental load was drastically reduced.
I still have tons to do, especially on the summit, but that is what I want to be doing. After the first summit, I will have all my funnels and tech figured out, and a template will be created. It’s simply the learning curve. And next time I definitely won’t be waiting till the last minute to do it all when I have something else major happening that I had already known about for a month.
I am sobbing along with Kimberly about not being at the mastermind live, but that’s the way it worked out, and I’m OK with that. Kimberly’s not even a member at this point because her renewal passed. Mine expired yesterday but you have a week’s grace so I can still get in. I might be able to put my Skool on her computer and that would solve that. There’s always a way.
Let the day begin…
It’s 3am and that’s getting to be a bad habit. The mastermind was amazing and went over an hour late - until past 6. So I couldn’t get started on my funnel project until after that. I was stuck on something for a while so I FaceTimed Alexandra. She fixed it in about 5 seconds, literally.
I delegated her the task of upgrading all my Amazon links because I got kicked out of the Amazon Associates program for not making 3 sales in 6 months. How ironic that the close my account just as I’m about to launch my summit.
After that, things rolled really smoothly. I’m starting to understand how a lot of the tech stuff is working. I got a lot done, but still need to do my video interview, and record 2 short - 1 minute - videos for my funnel. I was trying to think of a VIP bonus, and committed to creating a video about the process of creating this summit while in the thick of my crazy adventure. I also have to edit the terms and conditions, but that’s so boring I would be long asleep.
I also have to get a thumbnail of all the speakers to create a picture for my capture page. All this must be done tomorrow - good thing there’s an hour lunch! I don’t have time to procrastinate any more - it’s sink or swim. My speakers need the links to promote the summit, and some want to do clips for social media. I’m a fool if I don’t get it done.
Bedtime for me. Tomorrow will come quick because it’s already here. I’ll be skipping my morning thoughts and sleeping in - unless there is something spectacular that arrives in my brain tonight.