I wanted to come back to the US for so long. Ever since I was younger, something about America pulled me in. The freedom. The scale. The energy. It felt like life could become bigger here. Now I’m here, driving through states I used to only see online, meeting random people. Going to places I imagined for years. But honestly.. I kinda feel blocked. Like I expected this trip to unlock something inside me. Like clarity would suddenly hit me the moment I arrived. Instead my thoughts feel crowded and empty at the same time, almost numb in a weird way. And I think a lot of people experience this but never talk about it. You chase something for so long that your brain turns it into this huge emotional destination. Then when you finally get there, reality can never fully match the version you built in your head for years. Maybe that’s part of growing up too. Realizing no place automatically fixes your mind. Still figuring it out and still a long way to go.

Good evening all, I was just sitting at my computer working tonight and I had a feeling wash over me, I didn't who else to share this with but I know it would be understood here so I wanted to share. The feeling I got was sadness that washed over me for the suffering we endure, but more so knowing the fact that it doesn't have to be this way is what hit me the deepest. I know suffering is a part of human life but the to extent so many are suffering all because of greed, the darkness, the capitalism, the evil. Knowing we were not meant for that and that is it not normal and natural I think is what hurts the most. I have two little ones so I think about their future a lot too and this is why I feel it all right now. I know its easy to lose our shit as Laura says when you come face to face with so much of this, but I also want us all to feel it and know its okay, it's okay to cry about it and want different. But I also want to hold the love and the light and truly be the change I want to see in the world. Both can coexist, both can be true. We have hope, and we have love and we have each other and that means we have it all. Thank you for anyone reading this and if you are feeling this too I send you love.

I’m curious what does everyone do for work in this 3D world? I’ve been hanging on to a draining customer service role for 5 years because it’s remote and I like the flexibility of it but my oh my am I ever ready for something new. Also the irony is that I’m scared to take the plunge lol would love to hear what everyone is up to out there! Sup from Ontario Canada

Hey all! Extending the reach to see if anyone knows of a community somewhere in Ontario Canada for now or individuals that offer subsidized rent or no rent in exchange for help like a farm or seniors etc? I have a remote job and before I travel more international just looking for a wee nervous system reset. Feeling quite burnt out and looking for meaningful connection/community around nature etc, thanks so much :)

Hi guys, I have finally joined wanted to do this a long time ago and now I've joined I don't know where to start and how this works. But I would rather talk to you guys about this stuff I feel comfortable to talk here, so I'm just going to go for it. I have been struggling with substance abuse from age 16, it used to be recreational and last month I went a full month without going into it again. 17:17 as I write this, I know I can choose to say no to the little voice in my head saying let's take drugs and do the same shit I've been doing to "have a good time" because that turns into binging and having no sleep for 5 days and what have I got out of doing that, my lips are sore from biting them and anxiety and not going out of my apartment for days, and doing the same stuff, playing Tekken and fucking my body and mind up for a "good time", I thought this would help me to write this and telling that voice in my mind to do one in trying to stop me from writing this because I am scared of being judged for posting this. Done it now. Love you all