Thanksgiving · The Delusional Recovery Group

Thanksgiving

I wrote a blog here.I don't know if I should call it that or not.But I wanted to thank Dom for inviting me to join this group.It has been very therapeutic for me.I haven't been able to talk to anybody about what happened to me or what I allowed to happen to me because i've had a lot of shame about it.And any time I talk about it with my family.They immediately shout narcissist, and he's toxic, don't give him any energy, and you know, I just feel so embarrassed that I had feelings for him.And possibly still do, it's really quite ridiculous.That I would have any feelings for him at this point.But nonetheless, what was swirling around in my head like spaghetti soup is now written down chronological and linear.And so that has brought me a lot of clarity.And I wanted to thank the group for existing and thank Dom for creating it because it gave me an outlet for all of that emotion that was just boiling inside of me. Now it's out my shame is on paper or whatever this is and maybe I can put it down.You know, walk away, let it rest.Let me rest.It happened.It hurt.It was crazy.And now it's over. I'm trying to forgive myself for wishing I could see him again, it would be really nice if I didn't want to... Especially because I know he'd probably take special pleasure in destroying everything I have built.

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