For a long time, I believed magic was something distant and unreal.
Shamans, witches on broomsticks, magicians making things disappear or appear out of thin air.
Fantasy. Stories.
Not something connected to what we call real life.
At some point, however, a different understanding began to reveal itself to me.
An understanding of what magic truly is — and how deeply it influences our path toward God.
I began to see that magic, in a much broader and quieter sense, is something humans practice every day, often without realizing it.
For me, magic is not about rituals or spells.
It is about the inner desire to exert power over matter, over others, or over reality itself.
In that sense, I began to recognize magic in things like:
- Speaking badly about others — condemning, judging, hating
- Asking/praying for material outcomes (material wishes), even for things like health
- Trying to influence others mentally — imagining conversations, arguments, or outcomes in which we subtly try to shape another person
- Creating alternative realities in the mind — imagining how others should feel or react because of something we did
All of these arise, often unconsciously, from a desire to rule over creation rather than surrender to God.
For me, they originate in our animal nature, in the hunger for control, certainty, and power within the material world.
Seen from this perspective, these acts are not neutral.
They are sins.
And when I look back at my own life and recognize how often I lived this way, I can say nothing else but:
O Lord, have mercy on me — a sinner.
Amen.