Good afternoon everyone, this video, wow gods timing is amazing! I’ve always thought there was something wrong with me because I just was never able to have actual friends that I could sustain. But this video taught me about the Alfa and beta and turns out that yea I overthink everything before I do it, therefore sabotaging everything I did. Literally everything, realizing this right now makes me realize all the times I thought before I acted. This roots to my childhood, having only my mother present in my life, the lack of the male energy fucked me. Although I did notice a pattern in other kids when I was younger that other kids around me acted differently and just thought so much differently from me made me think I was incorrect most of the time. Although I lacked the male energy, I was able to “farm” a lot of the female energy, and it does have its advantages like, For me it was easier to talk to girls than talk to guys my age and for the longest time I went without knowing all this managing my life from a energy less source. But now in the present, I feel like I’ve gotten to the point were the balance of both energies are like very close to coming together. The video made me realize that I will act more and think less, I’ve been in my mind a lil too much it’s time move. God bless everyone.

In order to become an adult, you have to learn to let go of the childhood you didn't get. You can't pick up adulthood if you're still holding on to whatever it was you missed as a kid. And you focus on this fault because healing is not about regaining something, it is about realising that what is lost is lost for good, and with that, you lose the hope of ever going back. That realisation frightens you, so you keep staring at the gap between what happened and what should have happened, hoping to close it somehow. But that fixation keeps you trapped in the past. Every decision you make is still an attempt to reconcile those two versions of your childhood. So now you live in a world you don't fully enjoy, because you adopted the mindset of that incomplete child trying to travel back in time and fix whatever wasn't right. How much easier would it be to simply accept that part of that was missed, instead of putting your adult development on hold to wait around for it? Because childhood is not a progress bar. It's not task-oriented. It ends with age. Whatever it was, is what it was supposed to be. It is not a new responsibility, something you have to go back and complete. It's done. You have to move away from this fault, because only then can you pick up who you are supposed to be as an adult.

Hi everyone! First time posting here and I’m excited to meet and connect with you all. I wanna talk about a divine experience I had last night and what I’ve been going through for a while. Negative Fearful thoughts of catastrophe and death that have felt cyclical felt like it drove me into a corner in my mind and made me feel like something was wrong with my body, that I had a problem or was doomed for a short life. This was far from the case and much simpler than I could have ever imagined I never could have imagined how physical this experience was as it was not just mental. Yes, it is vital to be able to discern in your mind thoughts that are just thoughts which don’t have authority & nor are they prophetic. Ego/mind had begun making simple bodily sensations and feelings out to be something that might endanger my life or heart. It makes the splash of a pebble dropped in a lake out to be the size of a splash as if a building was dropped in the lake. And it does so through fear. Learning to listen to my body and sit with it is all it ever wanted. For me to stop running from a danger that only existed as thought forms of scary what-ifs and to reconnect with my body, feel it, and trust in it in this moment, which is the only real thing in existence. And so when we stop fighting and resisting the mind/body, the body releases tension and old emotions we didn’t know how to process years ago. It could go with tears, sighs, breath, shivers all over, gentle pops and other things. And it’s important to learn how to trust these happenings because this is where ego can freak out if you’ve ever felt hyper vigilant. But don’t be afraid, your body knows what it’s doing and naturally brings itself back to balance, harmony, & healing when you give it the space it needs and let go of fear, doubt, and control. You never have to monitor it, and nothing bad at all will come out of letting go the control. Quite the contrary. So last night I bring my body into a peaceful state and start to claim divine truths without even thinking about it. For someone who’s been feeling more raw unprocessed fear more than ever, this was calmest state of being I’d been in in a little while. God came to me as a blue formless woman and started speaking to me through my mind. Touching my heart that’s been aching for years and my stomach at the same time and saying “claim divine healing”. I did and I continued with God through this relaxing, unwinding process I’d been scared of feeling for so long. She let me know, “you’re worthy, you have a long life ahead of you, and I can’t wait to see what you bring into this world. And when you do die it will be a peaceful one long from now, you are one of the nicest people in existence” and I just felt the most love, acceptance, & safety.

This song entered my world today and it reminded me of a remarkable win that we’ve recently experienced. Letting go of a narrative that was no longer serving me 🙏 The story (the fear) was that a long time friend wants to hurt me and doesn’t really love me because of actions they chose. We carried this for months, but finally we reached a fork…and literally just oriented myself towards what we really believe in, love, kindness and compassion, and we let the old story go 🌬️🍃 May this song reach those that will be encouraged by it 🎶💫 https://on.soundcloud.com/NOzcvLmy8SZaSDP9Q6 Loosen by Aly Halpert LYRICS: Loosen, loosen, baby You don't have to carry The weight of the world in your muscles and bones Let go, let go, let go Holy breath, and holy name Will you ease, will you ease this pain Holy breath, and holy name Will you ease, will you ease this pain Holy breath (Loosen, loosen, baby) And holy name (You don't have to carry) Will you ease (The weight of the world in your muscles and bones) Will you ease this pain (Let go, let go, let go)

One thing I realized today in deep self-inquiry: People who are fighting with OCD, rumination, or any kind of mental health issues associated with thoughts — if anyone is engaged in fighting with thoughts and never able to rise above it, or getting frustrated by repetitive thoughts and loud mind chatter, use this idea over any methods or techniques you could possibly apply. When any thought disturbs you and makes you feel frustrated during meditation or non-meditation — just become that thought itself. Acknowledge the fact that you are that thought, and that the thought is not different from you, instead of fighting with it and creating duality. Go beyond the duality and merge with that thought to become one. When you create non-duality, you are free from thoughts — because thoughts exist only when there is duality, and the ego, with its full power, tries to separate the self from thoughts, which creates resistance. Use the same ego to acknowledge the thought, to be it itself, and gain insights from that non-duality. By doing so, you are free from controlling, observing, labeling, and resistance. I know a few of you are aware of this — but if anyone hasn't come across this idea, just cultivate it.