Over time, I have developed a spiritual practice that I experience very deeply. I raise my hands into the air, and through my fingertips I feel a distinct sensation. It begins in my fingers and gradually settles throughout my entire body. To me, this feeling is unmistakable. My personal belief is that it serves as an entryway through which spiritual energy or spiritual presences can connect with a person. I then start my music. As I do this, I feel what I can only describe as a magnetic presence standing in front of me. Through much experimentation with different people, I have come to believe that both the other person and I can feel this interaction. I perceive it as movement upon the skin and within what many people refer to as the bioelectric field. During these moments, I intentionally focus on positive things. I think about healing, peace, comfort, and the removal of anxiety. In my mind, I direct these thoughts and intentions toward the person standing before me. As this experience unfolds, I do not visualize the person's eyes. I see them. They simply appear before me. The eyes are usually in black and white, and sometimes I notice what looks like a small sparkle within them or flairs of light. With one particular person, I often see tears in their eyes. At times, I hear words or impressions in my mind that seem to be coming from them. However, I have learned to approach these experiences with humility because I do not always know with certainty where the impressions are coming from. Sometimes I wonder if I am hearing what they are saying, and other times I question whether I am hearing my own thoughts reflected back to me. At this point in my journey, there is still some uncertainty, and I do not claim to have all the answers. What I do believe is that I am interacting with what I perceive to be the person's higher self—a deeper, more aware aspect of their being that steps forward during these moments. I often ask internally, "Is this your higher self or your lower self?"

There was a time in my life when I was seeing and interacting with the Archangel Zachariel. To me, this presence seemed highly protective of certain people and appeared during some of the most difficult periods of my life. I will be honest: there was a period when I was angry and hurting. During that time, I explored practices that I now regret, including the arts of Goetia and other spiritual practices that I believed could influence people around me. Looking back, I saw people who seemed to become anxious, sick, or weighed down after these experiences. Whether others would interpret these events the same way or not, the consequences were real to me. My anger and choices cost me a great deal, including relationships with family and people I cared about. Over time, however, my perspective changed. Through this entire journey, I came to understand Christ more deeply. I no longer pursue those practices, and I have chosen a different path. But I cannot deny that those experiences shaped who I am and how I understand the spiritual world. One experience, in particular, still stands out to me. I was conducting an experiment with a friend. I told her, "I'm going to walk to you in the spirit and try to communicate with you. I want you to think of a single word and use a symbol so that I can see it." I was sitting in my room in Leander, Texas, while she was on the south side of Austin with her granddaughter. Suddenly, in my mind, I heard the word dagger. Then I heard the word wand. At the same time, I perceived her sitting on a couch or bed, speaking with her granddaughter. I immediately called her and said, "Okay, I'm ready. I heard what you said." She replied, "John, I never started. I'm still talking to my granddaughter." I had perceived her talking to her granddaughter before she had even begun the exercise. So what happened? I have spent a great deal of time reflecting on that experience. My personal belief is that I was not communicating with her conscious mind. Instead, I believe I was interacting with what many traditions call the higher self—a deeper aspect of a person that is always attentive, always aware, and always present.

Unless you live it you are just pretending. Seeing in the spirit are for those that are being judged by fire it's survive or die.

What Is Divine Fire? I think of energy like fire. Fire always follows fuel, but it also follows direction. If you light a cornfield from one side, the fire burns primarily in one direction. If you ignite it in the center, it spreads outward in all directions. Add a strong wind, and the flames stretch and move with purpose. I use this as a metaphor for intention. Our attention is the fuel. Our intention is the spark. Emotion, music, and focus become the wind that gives our energy direction. This is the practice I call Divine Fire. Step 1: Create a Sacred Space I begin by finding a quiet place and sitting comfortably. I close my eyes and visualize a person standing before me. In my mind, we are both inside a circle. To me, this circle is a sacred space of focus and intention. I invite the person to step forward. I become still and simply allow myself to experience the moment. Step 2: Visualize the Presence As I focus, I imagine a presence emerging. For me, this presence often represents the person's waking self or lower self—the personality and conscious mind that experiences the material world. Others may view this differently. Some may interpret it as another aspect of consciousness or a symbolic representation of the person. The important part is allowing yourself to focus your attention fully. Step 3: Build the Sphere of Energy I raise my hands and hold them slightly apart, one on each side of the imagined body. I become quiet and patient. I imagine energy gathering between my hands. It begins like warmth and gradually becomes a sphere of focused intention. I slowly move my hands from the top of the person's head to the tips of their toes and back again. I repeat this movement for several minutes. Then I move my hands across the arms, shoulders, torso, waist, legs, and head in a slow, wave-like motion, imagining energy flowing in and out like the movement of the ocean. For me, the purpose of these motions is to create a sense of connection and focused intention.

Connecting with 3 spirits someone else remembered as a child. She called the spirit after instruction. And this is the result. Thing like this I'm thankful for. Yet I don't understand.