my Goal this week was to find out what I want.
it wasnt easy.
What I want when? Now? In 3 years? In a decade?
I answered this 48 question sheet where I went over every question. The sheet wanted me to talk about what I want to have and be in 3 to 5 years from know.
Sounds solid. I could Imagine what I would be like and what things I would want to have in 3 to 5 years.
well it was tough it took me more than 3 hours to answer all the questions. I wrote 11 pages of google docs. 11 pages of ANSWERS.
The questions were about things like: What do you want to love to have? Where do you want to live?What do you want to have achieved? Who are the top 5 most important people in your life? WHO DO YOU WANT TO BE?
The plan was to upload the 48 questions to CHAT GPT and let it generate a movie typed Day in a life of my future self.
I uploaded the questions. Gave Chat GPT a framework how to write. Set the duration to "thinking" (so chat would put more effort into it iI guess) 16s later...
I am now a proud owner of a story in my future life.
I waited a day until I read the day in a life. lets call it "DIAL" so I wont have to spell it everytime.
I read the DIAL on the train ride to uni. I got pretty emotional. At one point I thought I was going to cry.
It was an experience. Some things were off in the DIAL while other things felt like a promise to myself. Things I could grab. ACHIEVABLE.
That was two days ago.
my GF said that it was nice but where is the benefit.
I saw it too
It was a Story, a Tale, a sketch of what COULD be.
She asked me if I know what to do right now. What business I want to start. If the business will get me to my DIAL?
I said: "I dont know?"
well f*ck... 3h and 11 pages down the drain.
maybe its about knowing what you DONT want. I thought to myself.
I study CS. CS has alot of math. NOW life isnt always logic. BUUUUUTTT.....
Knowing what you DONT want might help... but it doesnt imply that you will know what you want.
Ther is an infinite number of things you could want. You would have to know infinite -1 things you dont want, to figure out what the 1 thing you want is.
I am convinced that the 3h and 11 pages were not wasted.
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I made me think about what is important to me. (This is probably the most important thing about these 48 questions to sit down without distractions and think about these questions. Think deeply trusting your heart. Just letting it go through my mind helped me more than the actual DIAL in the end.)
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The person I want to be in 5 years is not David Goggins, Iman Ghazi, Maurits Neo or anyone of these milinaires.
I WANT TO BE MYSELF.
but better. A version of myself that is proud of me right now. A version that has improved every god damn day. A version that wasted a little less time each day. A version that hustled. A version that kept going to the gym no matter how bad times were.
Those are all the thing I want.
I want to improve myself. I want to improve my life. Turn life into easy-mode.
Now I know what to do. I will read my DIAL every once in a while. review my behaviour. Check if its aligned where I want to be in 3 years. And take actions accordingly.
I just need to lock in. Doing my thing. no matter what.
I said that I want to be top of my CS class. I said that I want to quit playing video games. I said that I want to be ripped.
Those 3 things don't come out of thin air.
They need work. HARD WORK. Work that I might not like as much as playing video games at first.
This is the work I want to pursue. I want to grind. Tryharding Life as if it were a video game.
NOW is the TIME to take action.
"The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. Second best time is NOW!"
Start digging that hole. Plant the seeds. put in the effort and you will earn the fruits.
but choose your tree wisely.
I put the questions into a google sheet below: