my Goal this week was to find out what I want. it wasnt easy. What I want when? Now? In 3 years? In a decade? I answered this 48 question sheet where I went over every question. The sheet wanted me to talk about what I want to have and be in 3 to 5 years from know. Sounds solid. I could Imagine what I would be like and what things I would want to have in 3 to 5 years. well it was tough it took me more than 3 hours to answer all the questions. I wrote 11 pages of google docs. 11 pages of ANSWERS. The questions were about things like: What do you want to love to have? Where do you want to live?What do you want to have achieved? Who are the top 5 most important people in your life? WHO DO YOU WANT TO BE? The plan was to upload the 48 questions to CHAT GPT and let it generate a movie typed Day in a life of my future self. I uploaded the questions. Gave Chat GPT a framework how to write. Set the duration to "thinking" (so chat would put more effort into it iI guess) 16s later... I am now a proud owner of a story in my future life. I waited a day until I read the day in a life. lets call it "DIAL" so I wont have to spell it everytime. I read the DIAL on the train ride to uni. I got pretty emotional. At one point I thought I was going to cry. It was an experience. Some things were off in the DIAL while other things felt like a promise to myself. Things I could grab. ACHIEVABLE. That was two days ago. my GF said that it was nice but where is the benefit. I saw it too It was a Story, a Tale, a sketch of what COULD be. She asked me if I know what to do right now. What business I want to start. If the business will get me to my DIAL? I said: "I dont know?" well f*ck... 3h and 11 pages down the drain. maybe its about knowing what you DONT want. I thought to myself. I study CS. CS has alot of math. NOW life isnt always logic. BUUUUUTTT..... Knowing what you DONT want might help... but it doesnt imply that you will know what you want. Ther is an infinite number of things you could want. You would have to know infinite -1 things you dont want, to figure out what the 1 thing you want is.

This week I felt very energetic. I prioritised my Uni assignments and handed everything in way ahead of time. "That must feel amazing", you might think. Well I thought so too. Unfortunately it didnt. It felt good telling my Parents. It felt good telling my Friends. But at the end of the week I felt oike I could have done more. Like I could have finished the exercise sheets completely. How can I be proud of things while thinking that I could have done more. It sounds super depressing. There will always be more to to in 24h hours. My Girlfriend said, that I need to relax and be proud of the things I did. Not thinking to much about how much more I could have done. I said that I was proud but i felt like I rewarded myself to much at the end if the week. I spend the whole Friday afternoon playing Valorant (a Game that I am not even good at). I felt bad. I thought to myself that instead of gaming I spend my time learning a sklill that I could sell or selling a skill I allready have. I could make some money during Uni. Another option also would have been to study more to go through the lectures of the day again and repeat the Stuff from Uni. This would get me in a COMFORTABLE spot to pass all the exams. GOOD WORK NEEDS TO BE REWARDED. This week I rewarded my early assignment Hustle with a couple hours and fun with friends in Valorant. I wonder if it feels better if i get rewarded by someone else. Let it be Money from a Job or a good grade from Uni. School felt "free" until now. Well of course I was happy passing my Matura and finishing Bez. But it felt unfaillable. Being 1 out of 300 people to fail Kanti felt impossible. Now Uni 40% fail the first Year. Seems scary. Well. I know that there is a way to "unscary" these exams. The way is practice. I want to think more for my future self think about how can I make life easier today for myself tomorrow, in a week, a month, a year, a decade. If I and YOU get into that grindset. What can stop US? P.S. Dont loose track of fun and appreciate th moment. DOT PRESSURE YOURSELF TOO MUCH. There always be more to do. Be happy. Plaing Valorant and having fun with friends is okay. JUST BE AWARE.

This text is primarily for myself. Although, if you find yourself being able to apply some of my thoughts for yourself, feel free to do so :) Here is a small overview of my text: - My current situation and experiences - How time distorts our unconscious behaviour for things - Get active! ------ My current situation and experiences ------ In the recent weeks, I lost 2 very important personalities in my life. The first one was my grandmother. She had such a big heart and was so lovely, every time, when I got to know another lovely person, I assessed them with the question "How much percent lovely of my grandmother is he/she?" Nobody could reach my grandma in the lovely scale. She really was the most lovely person I knew. The second death was my dog (just about 5 days ago). I grew up with him, he basically was a brother to me. A brother that never said something mean or bad or ragebaiting (like my human brother did), just one, that is happy EVERYTIME he sees you and gets up to say "Hello, welcome back" in a proper way (no human would ever do that when living for 13,5 years with you). Soooo yeah... They meant something to me, as you can see. You have no idea how hard I would hug my dog if he was still with me or how hard I would hit that call button to call my grandma, if I still had the chance to. So my message is: ENJOY THINGS WHILE THEY LAST I could probably stop right here, but now comes the nerdy part hehehe: This is a phrase, that we actually hear very often. In fact, so often, that we don't even really think about it anymore and just go on. So basically, we hear it *too* often. ----- How time distorts our unconscious behavior for things ----- I thought myself: "If I knew back in time, that my dog or my gradma will soon be gone forever, how would I have acted?" Obviously differently, right? What does that tell me? --> If we know, that a ressource is limited/scarce, we value it more. And it makes sense. That's human nature. Right now you wouldn't waste a single cent on a breath of air, but how much are you willing to pay for one litre of air, if you were on Mars? Probably a lot more, right?

I had an AMAZING day today. Everything fell into piece. I slept well. Woke up (I was in a little rush). Went to UNI by train, listening to Podcast. Studied. Finished the weekly exercise for one class. Went home. Practiced for my Bike assesment on Thursday. Fixxed my Bike. Ate Dinner with my Sister. Had Volleyball practice. The Jeans that were sold out got available. It felt GREAT. 2h Phone time and almost no Brainrot. I belive the less time on the phone the more time to be alive and appreciate yourself. It felt like there was no time limit. I felt like I could do anything.

I RARELY drink alcohol. TODAY I drank. I went to bed at 0430 am. At 0810 am I was at uni. On time. READY for the Lecture. (the lecture ended up not so interessting) I'd like to find balance between work and party. I feel like I am doing good so far. A Work/Life balance is probably the most important thing during the first year at UNI. I am trying to reward myself for finishing tasks ahead of time. I do this to avoid stress closer to the deadlines. My GOAL is to keep up this structure throughout the whole Bachelor at ETH Zürich. It will make things easier for MY FUTURE SELF.