First time I actually sold any of my Art

Yesterday I launched a Printify page with original art work drawn for the Solar Cross Calendar project. Which is a 13 month symmetrical calendar based on Equinoxes and Solstices.

I made a promotional 33% off for two weeks. One week before Spring Equinox and one week after. It basically pays for production and shipping and leaves just a bit of profit.

It’s a small step but it’s something after 3 years of working on this.

https://solarcrosscalendar.printify.me/

When I posted about it on IG and FB and here on this group. I then felt a very weird and intense feeling, it was a mix of pessimism, anxiety, fear, even dread. With this undertone of “why the fuck Im I even wasting my time on this”. But at the same time it felt electric ⚡️ and that I opened a door to the unknown, like a timeline shift that I have no idea what it will mean.

This idea has been in my mind for 3 years and have been very reluctant to make it public, because proposing a new calendar seems totally unrealistic and megalomaniac. But the idea wouldn’t leave me alone, I would forget about it and then have a dream and would wake up and draw or do the math and discover hidden aspects. Even in some meditations some information would pop up out of nowhere and I would check it and it would make sense. Sometimes it was even annoying me, Im not kidding. So I have no idea what this actually means, I have no expectations for anyone to actually use this framework. I have been using it for my own personal reasons and I like the rhythm that it gives to my life. It feels more natural to synch everything with equinoxes, solstices, moon cycles and eclipses.

But one thing that is becoming more and more important for me is not the calendar itself, it’s just a finger pointing to the moon, it’s not about the finger it’s about the moon. We are running our lives and society as a whole on a calendar that was made by the Roman empire to run a system of control and domination, and the same system was exported all around the world through colonialism. So if we like it or not, subconsciously we are running our lives as the continuation of an archaic empire of domination. We need a New Story that we tell ourselves as a species and what we are doing on this planet we call home. If this calendar helps frame this New Story or just opens the discussion, so be it. But the story is important not the calendar.

Today I woke up from this dream (no need to say, it was codified, but I knew what it meant)

and I was very calm. Totally different energy than yesterday. I felt like what ever is meant to happen will happen, all I need to do is stay on my path with integrity, no need for anyone to validate or reaffirm my path. Just need to surrender all expectations, attachments to outcomes, all dreams and fears about the future, all my egocentrism and neediness, and just trust and have faith to the unknown path ahead. Don’t even want to know, just need to put one foot after the other and walk my path and be grateful for everything that comes my way. Any hardship or any blessing to be accepted as what is, nothing more nothing less.

And then I saw that I actually sold some of my first prints and one t shirt. And I didn’t feel elated or joyful, I felt very very calm and peaceful. And then I took my dog for a walk and enjoyed the morning light in the forest.

All our unique paths unfold as they should at exactly the right time, if our egos stop trying to control outcomes, we just have to get out of our on way and have faith in our soul and the divine.

Our souls have a partnership with God/divine/source (call it what you will). The ego is just the vessel to take us from birth to death and is like a kid that just wants cookies all the time. Ok it can have a cookie once in a while, but it’s appetite is infinite and never satisfied, so it should be taken very seriously.

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