I feel like the only way to remove my phone addiction is if I don't have a phone and get a flip phone. I've tried a lot of things to stop, but I still can't stop looking at soccer content, especially with the World Cup right now. I love soccer, but I can see it becoming an Idol. I think it is already an idol. I have had months or weeks of being in control, but as you know, depending on the will never works. I have also tried prayer many times, but I just cannot seem to be delivered. I don't get it, for me, some sins are just easy to hate and not do, but some are just hard to ignore, like entertainment, like soccer. This is even harder because I grew up with soccer and Joga Bonito videos.

Not exactly because of outside factors but to at least have something to help others with

How do I limit this, there are times I geniuley need to rest, but I need to stop the rotting

I’ve been going through a really tough internal battle lately — heavy unfulfilment and mental warfare that’s been affecting my walk with God and my ability to lead this ministry well. I won’t go into all the details, but I wanted to be transparent with you. Please keep me in your prayers. I’m fighting through it and committed to becoming stronger for this community. Thank you.

I know I want to serve and have been walking in my calling and staying rooted in the Word but it feels like I'm just doing it because I need to. I lost my fire and I'm being convicted about double mindedness but i don't know how to open my heart again.