Normally, I don’t write messages in this category, but I felt the Holy Spirit nudging me to write this. No Bible verses or Christianese, just the cold, hard truth. During my spiritual walk recently, it feels like a bunch of weight is being poured onto my back—so much weight that my knees wobble, my back starts to curve inward, and my movement starts to slow. It feels like —not one— but multiple giant, raging storms are running rampant in my mind, and I’m just one gust of wind away from falling into it. Because of all my trials, it got to a point where my prayers are starting to sound like this: “Father God, all I want is You. I can’t handle this weight on my own, this pain on my own, these wounds on my own. This time, I’m not seeking for any miracles, breakthroughs, blessings, or open doors— all I want is You, God. Lift up all the weight off of my back; give me rest like never before. Help me heal, Lord. In the almighty name of Your perfect Son, Jesus, I pray. Amen.” If this message resonated with you, please let me know.

Someone is walking towards the bridge next to the park, he steps on the old rusty bridge and he start walking on it until he reaches the first pilon then he stops. He lights a cigarette, as he blows the smoke away he look down at the water. He's chest feels heavy, he wants to jump in the water and to end it all but... he knows something... he knows that if he does that he is going to commit a sin. Then he says to God that he is sorry but he can't endure this life anymore, then something happens... he doesn't jump, he fells like someone is in front of him, holding him by his chest so he wouldn't jump Was that God? Or it was the fear of what his loves one will endure if they lost him? Was it fear of dead? Or fear of the pain ? I don't know, but after that he walks away from the bridge and he goes back home to the family problems, to the anxiety and depression, back to the addiction, but next day something happens... His in class and one of his classmates is asking a friend out who doesn't want to and he (our character) offers himself to go out with his classmate and he accepts. They got out and they start talking and for some reason they had started to talk about religion and his classmate shares the Gospel with him (our character) then they go to his house and he gets him 2 New Testaments book and a Christian magazine and after that they got to each others house. That.... that was the moment when something great had started, something that's called God's plan, a plan to prosper you, not to harm you. But who is he ( our character ) from the story? Well... that was me... 2 years ago and now God had restored me. He (God) transform my from a 13 year old teen who was smoking, addicted to p*rn, addicted to social media, who didn't care as little as possible about school, He brought me to a new person, healed my from this addiction and open my eyes about life. If God didn't show up at that moment in my life I would had only 2 endings. Either on the bottom of a river

Today as I was talking to some of my peers, I noticed a pattern that people nowadays will look at anything, whether good or bad, and will always try to make it look bad or awkward for a cheap laugh and fake social bonding. I admit that I too was a victim of this, though the ROI I got from it was far from worth it. The reason why we live in a society full of hate, pessimism, and fear is because the people who are the middle mass dictate the future society and the environment we all live in. A positive, peaceful mass will build their hierarchy from the bottom up that's focused on peace, where the leaders that come from the middle end up peaceful. The only reason why we are living in this reality is because society is too conditioned by the devil to chase the masses under the excuse of FOMO, which hinders people from finding Christ in the first place. We Christians are hated because we make the most positive difference and break the pattern more than any other movement and religion that exists on this planet. So if you're being mocked, laughed at, and seen as crazy, remember the fact that you are the very person that will leave a mark of influence and a hope of change on other people. Jesus Loves You.