Sometimes I wonder—what if after all these years of trying and sufferings to follow the right path, and keeping parda, I suddenly slip? What if I end up like those women who flaunt their beauty in front of non-mahram men, giving in to the world’s temptations? What if after all the struggles and sacrifices for Allah, one mistake ruins everything and I miss out on Jannah? What if I end up into hell fire? And What if I never get successful,never get to pay my debts, die and never get to enter jannah?
It’s a scary thought that keeps me up sometimes.