Its a long post but from the depth of my heart dont know if you have time to read or not but since I feel very connected to this community I am sharing this one
So Back in 2020 I was actually in a life full of sins . From that time A video of youth club mentor Tuaha ibn Jalil brother came . And it literally changed me it was like “heart finds peace only in the remembrance of Allah” another one was “if you prioritise something more than Allah then Allah will destroy that thing”
After listening that I started living a life where I was putting Allah first in every single aspect of my life and trust me I was living in paradise.
I was enjoying my life a lot . Slowly slowly when I got into university I started getting into a free mixing environments and then slowly slowly I feel its becoming very difficult for me to lower my gaze . And It was becoming very difficult to stop interacting with non mahram . Now today I feel I am so far away from Allah .
I try to get back but I slip again and again because always I need to go to an environment which is not appropriate.
And this thing which is having a distance from Allah also putting lost of negativity and lack of barakah in other aspects of my life . Like rizq,relationships, ibadats etc .
I feel lost😅
Have you guys face such situations? If yes how did you guys overcome this?