I've been lying... · Expert Coach Certification

I've been lying...

I walk up to Kern and give him a long hug and I'm smiling. He is looking at me and we just have a quiet genuine embrace. The kids are all asleep.

I join him on the couch as he is watching TV.

Kat: I have been lying about so much being your fault. I have been blaming you for feeling diminished in my career and unimportant somehow...

The Truth is you do so much for so many who may not appreciate you, but I do. I love you, you are my rock.

The cost of the lie is that It has allowed me to avoid responsibility for healing past anger and pain that has been getting in my way.

I am committing everyday to supporting you.

(Kern turns the TV off and looks at me. I'm holding his feet) he looks at me and sais:

Kern: " You are my rock. You are such a beautiful woman. Sometimes I am afraid of how much love I feel for you. You are an amazing person."

Kat: ( tears are flowing)

Kern: are you alright

Kat: have you ever heard the expression tears of joy?

Kern: yes

Kat: well, these are not. I just didn't realise how much anger I needed to let go of. I just feel a sense of release. I've been wasting energy on allowing myself to be drawn into the some of the wrong aspects of relating to others for too long.

( We sit in silence holding each other feet.)

Kern: I know what you mean, I've been doing the same thing at work. We can all do that.( This conversation goes on for quite a while)

Kat: Have you heard of The last Avatar Air bender?

Kern: Let's watch the first episode.

@Ed J C Smith

- Thank You Ed. That is what I needed and this time it was exact.

We felt very connected in that moment. I also so appreciate the emotional decharge. I am on a new mission to heal all the relationships in my life that have stored pain for too long.

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