I’m going to be completely transparent and vulnerable for a minute. My profile is a CS, last year I was a CSI. I thrive off systems and facts, and enjoy admin work. I am seriously holding myself back though wanting to know more than my experience allows. I am new to the RE industry and being an independent contractor/being my own RE "entity". I consider myself to be an empath. I have always been the mother figure to those around me since I was a child (yes, a child), and what I feel is written all over my face and in my body language. I do not have the confidence in being an agent yet, as I feel I do not know enough. AND I am an introvert. Sometimes I get burnt out being around too much energy and stimulation. I can be social, outgoing and fun (I'm the one that will include someone if they seem lonely or have a good energy about them). And I am 1,000% down for those who touch my heart, but like I said I am an empath and the vibes and energy I feel around others play a big part in me stepping off and preferring to be at home, safely within my sanctuary. I’ve had the same, few good friends that I am close with since elementary school, my inner circle is tiny, and I prefer it that way. Life has conditioned me to rely solely on myself, and I’ve had to be the responsible one for so long that I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders. All of this is causing me to hold myself back due to codependency. It takes a lot for me to get to a point where I don’t care anymore about the restraints, and when I put my mind to it NOTHING will stop me! But it takes too long for that to happen, and I want to naturally be able to switch to that mode without being in beast mode, if you will. 😉
What advice do you have to help me break these generational chains I carry? My goal once I'm free, is to help others like me stuck and too strong to be vulnerable enough to get the help to free themselves...