Humility through humiliation - For me, this means I'm human, and all ranges of feeling are on the table. It is realizing I am both perfect and imperfect simultaneously. I am perfect in God's eyes but imperfect in my relationship with God, and with others. I am finding that I am only really free when I'm able to be seen as imperfect, even when my intention was to be seen as managing my life well. My self image is so adept at being in control. My self imagine is so used to holding the space. My self image is so used to leading.
But what happens when I'm the one being lead? When I'm surrendered, and not in control? When someone else is holding the mirror and I can't hide from myself?
This is where I choose to meet myself in humility. It will take more layers of humiliation for me to be whole, but I consciously choose to accept that fate.