Part 1: THE PHILOSOPHY OF COMPLETION AND WILLINGNESS STEP 1: Reflect on Resonance (Willingness vs. Obligation) The foundation of this work begins with your posture. We can see that doing this work from a place of obligation ("I should," "I need to," "I have to") will only recycle the past and damage you further. Instead, the requirement is simply your willingness. • What does it mean for you to replace your "shoulds" with a "willingness to stand in the possibility of seeing something you don't see today"? First and foremost, for me it means to practice becoming present and aware in my own body so that I even have the opportunity to sense where I am operating from. Replacing my “shoulds” with a “willingness” for me means that I move from a passive victim stance into active self-responsibility and participation in my own self-discovery, instead of saying I want to know myself but then expecting/letting someone else (to) try and drag me along while I am fighting for my right to do it my way. It means I not only deliberately choose to acknowledge that I always have a choice and also only I get to choose to see myself more deeply, but also take a position that is open and willing to see more, learn and do things differently. Specifically, that also means that I catch myself in moments where my nervous system goes haywire, for example because I am given an assignment like this or I need to do some bureaucratic things/ things I simply don’t know how to do yet/have never done. And then redirect myself into presence and approach it with openness, trust in myself and willingness to explore myself through it. And that includes a willingness to not be “perfect” and make “mistakes”. It simultaneously means allowing myself to release the “shoulds” or expectations that I place on another. • Write a reflection exploring the difference in your body and mind when you approach your parental trauma from "willingness" rather than "obligation". I’m trying to feel into which way to read this...the obligation being that I feel I should do something, or that I feel my parents are obliged to do something. It seems to be one and the same, because as long as I feel I should do sth., I am not willing and automatically blaming and expecting them to do it for me. When I feel into the core wound of wanting to be seen and heard it’s interesting to notice how the attention in my body shifts from my head/throat and heart down into my sacral, root, my back and feet when I approach it from willingness to actually be responsible for that myself. When I am in obligation and feel “he should give me attention” or “I have to always work hard for him to notice me” I notice the strong tension in my throat, jaw and face. My eyes are trying to forcefully see(k) in order to be seen or something. I sense grief in my heart, a desperation and hurt and it feels like my whole energy is being pressed from the heart up, kind of getting stuck and there is like a forward momentum from the mouth and eyes. A seeking and leaning towards something external. When I tune into an acceptance of my own willingness to see not outside, I begin feeling the energy moving down, I become aware I have a spine and I rest in my pelvis. Instead of my heart energy pressing up and out there is a gentle sinking into and landing in my heart and body.

One of my breakthrough moments was tapping into my nervous system and uncovering deeper layers of anger towards myself as well as the guilt, concern, fear and neediness I've held in regards to my father. For the first time I got to see and feel how the pattern of looking for attention, confirmation and love...specifically from the masculine..has been formed around the experience of my dad moving out and leaving us when I was 7 (he came back when I was a teen). When I found out he had an affair I felt so angry and said I didn't wanna see him ever again and he responded that if I keep saying that maybe he'll never come back. This has led to the fear of being left, lacking the fundamental support and safety, never good enough, not worthy, guilty for not being able to make him stay. And always looking to still get some of that love (manipulation) and in a way idolizing my dad through making him, and whether he sees and approves of me, so important to my success in life. I've been able to witness and release the silent contract of not living my full creative potential because he didn't and that I would keep me connected to him. Being able to acknowledge and feel where I had cut myself of from feeling that moment in time brought a deeper acceptance and calm in my body and nervous system and I experienced a sense of coming back home and receiving nourishment and love vertically instead of horizontally. ❤️

Hi everyone! My name is Mena and I'm from Germany. I was mentoring with Eoacci for two and a half years I believe and have now felt the call to open myself to a deeper exchange again. My intention in this right now is to practice accessing and balancing my nervous system in a deeper way so I can move from thinking, looping and escaping into truly feeling and being in the body. Looking forward to this...and thank you Éoaccí for calling us in again! It's such a simple thing and yet I tend to postpone it because of perfectionism/self-doubt. But just deciding and sitting down to do it I see how easy it is. ❤️