Two nights ago, one of my cats, Hoku, fought for his life.
We have an adventure cat.
Curious, confident, always wanting to explore a little beyond the comfort zone.
At 10 p.m., when we got home from celebrating Motherâs Day early, he ignored our rules and slipped past us out the door.
Chris always worries when they do that and wants to chase them for hours on end.
I donât chase him anymoreâhe comes home when he wants to anyway and rudely avoids us until then.
At 2 a.m., Chris woke up first.
I heard him say, âfuck,â and thatâs what woke me up.
I vaguely heard the noiseâbut his voice is what had it register in my sleep.
And then I heard the scuffle outside.
It sounded like a scream of death coming from outside.
Chris was out of bed instantly, fearing it was Hoku.
When he got outside, he didnât see anything at firstâso he thought maybe it was one of the neighborâs chickens.
But it wasnât.
It was Hoku.
In the mouth of a coyote.
We found out today the neighbor thought it was just a cat fight going on for fifteen minutes in her yard.
Fifteen minutes. (We think her house blocked the noise and thats why we didnt wake up sooner).
Which explains why when he came homeâshaken, punctured, but aliveâthere was coyote fur stuck in his claws and he had blood on him; not from his own wounds.
He didnât just survive.
He fought. And Chris jumped in, councidentally right when there was no other choice for survival.
I was praying while Chris was out there. And I pray for their protection all the time.
I truly believe (thru experience) our highest human potential is knowing we are one with God. That everything the Creator of All That Is... the Creator of every dimension, creature, planet, ocean, cosmo, etc- designed- we also have access to.
I work to embody this Divine Birthright and keep this relationship open and close... because having friends in high places is important.
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And because Iâve spent years doing this workâ
learning how to regulate, how to clear, how to support the body through shock, how to actually partner with something higherâ
I knew what to do when he came back.
Heâs here.
Healing.
Holding together in a way that could have gone very differently.
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Sometimes life has you in something that feels like itâs going on way too long.
Something you didnât choose.
Something that doesnât feel fair.
And youâre just⊠in it.
Fighting.
Minute after minute.
Not knowing how itâs going to end.
But something in you refuses to stop.
And that matters.
Because sometimes you need to hold your ground long enough
for help to meet you there.
There are two things Iâm taking from this:
Firstâ
you are stronger than you think when it actually matters.
And secondâthe inner work you do before everything falls apartis what carries you through it when it does.
Whether you call that your relationship with God, your connection to something greater, or the subconscious patterns youâve trained into your nervous systemâ
it shows up when it counts.
I'll be continuing to heal my little warrior today đŸ
I think he's about 4 days healed ahead of schedule. Walking, more and more relaxed, and integrating from his traumatic night.
And if youâve been in your own kind of fight latelyâ
keep going.
You donât know how close you are to the moment things turn.
(First image was yesterday, after his first few rounds of healing; second image it today- where you can see he is almost back to normal; also- He is Hoku- the "Cosmic Healer-" so surviving the coyote was an initiation into wisdom and more of who he is meant to be).