Real connection is asking for help

After dealing with 4 different Dr's cat scans n xrays since the 1st part of 2025 it was actually a cervical chiropractor in May that found the dystonia symptoms.

Dystonia is very scary n painful.

He advised me to have the mercury fillings removed ASAP by a professional bio dentist n to go onto an anti inflammatory diet as well as a heavy metal detox n also I needed someone to be there to help me with decision making.

The 1st 6 months of this was really intense n scary like I looked n felt like I have Parkinsons

I couldnt sit down to eat

im left handed n i had to start learning how to do things with my right hand

My head would not stop pulling n shaking

the brain fog n stuttering was completely overwhelming

😔 😕 😢 😭 😿

How does 1 thats been in survival mode for the past 21 yrs ask for help

Asking for help always meant being lectured as to why im in this position. ((the cringiest was you made your bed now lay in it. 🤮) Drama. Gossip. Or just flat out abandoned. 😕 😞

On Nov 10th I sat with my 26yr old son n said I need help. Its cost 1000s to have work done n its gonna be 1000s more to complete the work that insurance simply won't cover.

I could go on n on from replacing all 4 tires to the water heater to the gutters cuz it was raining in the house to the cbdN for the pain. No chemicals in shampoos soaps cleaning products everything started to add up n selling my house is the only way out.

I had to tell my son. Everything. Even my fears of being stuck like this 😕 I had to tell him everything n for the 1st time in my life someone held me n said I got you. I love you n im here for you. My son rubbed my face n held me.

Thats connection.

Not having to be in survival mode

Not feeling like ive failed

Being held n understood the pain is real even if the fear is not.

My son gave me $500 ( even if he had nothing to give but that hug that was what I needed )

I couldn't remember the last time someone held me like that

That is connection n that is healing

Thank you all for allowing me to feel safe to share 🙏

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