After my last spiritual awakening, in the process of ego death and dark night if the soul, I am literally unable to work. I might sit in front of the laptop and not be able to do anything. I am afraid, I do not want to get fired. Deep down all I wanna do is get lost in the woods, talk about spirituality and eat healthy food. But how to not get crazy in the rat race? And risk losing income. I feel like everything is falling apart..